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Song For Today:31st August 2020

31/8/2020

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I dedicate my song today to Liz Lawrence Lawrence who lives in my birthplace of Portlaw, County Waterford in Ireland, and John Dixon. Both Liz and John celebrate their birthday today. Enjoy your special day and thank you for being my Facebook friend.

My song today is ‘Bachelor Boy’. This song was recorded by Cliff Richard and the Shadows. The song was written by Bruce Welch (from the Shadows). It became a hit when it was released as the B-side of Richard's single ‘The Next Time’. Both sides of the single were regarded as having chart potential so both sides were promoted, but in most markets ‘Bachelor Boy’ became the bigger hit. The single spent three weeks at Number 1 in the ‘UK Singles Chart’ in January 1963 and was a major hit internationally, excluding the US. Both sides of the single were included on the accompanying soundtrack album ‘Summer Holiday’. 

In the UK, the single was the first of three Number 1 hit singles from Richard's musical film, ‘Summer Holiday’, the other two hit songs being ‘Summer Holiday’ and ‘Foot Tapper’. The film was the most successful box-office attraction of the year.

The song is about some advice a father passes to his son, to ‘remain a bachelor boy until (his) dying day’. Richard later commented when he wrote this song that he "never expected it to be prophetic". While Richard has himself never married, the song itself does not rule out marriage, with the final verse stating "I'll get married, have a wife and a child... but until then I'll be a bachelor boy".

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In December 1963, I emigrated to Canada for a couple of years. I had always dreamed of going there and travelling around some of the United States before I got married and settled down to raise a family. Having a few gap years in my life had been made possible by having come into some compensation money that had been awarded to me following a bad traffic accident at the age of 11 years. 

In many ways, the advice given by the father to his son in the song was not much different than the advice my father gave me. I recall during my twentieth year of life, my mother, (who did not want me to go travelling to the other side of the world because she feared that she would never see me again) would say, “Don’t bother going to Canada, Billy. Stay here and find a nice girl to marry and settle down with, and to have a family,” whereas my father would simply say, “There’s no need to hurry into marriage, lad. In fact, some men don’t get married!” 

I remember meeting a few really beautiful young women in my twentieth year who would undoubtedly have made good marriage partners and loving mothers to any children we had, but however tempting they proved to be, every time the relationship between us started to get serious, I would break it off. I loved the experience of ‘falling in love’, but without the responsibilities of ‘being in love’.

So, in December 1963, I set off from the Liverpool docks in the ‘S.S.Sylvania’ bound for Nova Scotia, in Canada, from where I would travel across the country by train to Quebec City where I first planned to live and work. Before I decided upon making Quebec my first base camp in Canada, I had read up on the place. I knew that they spoke English and French, but mostly French. Because I could not speak one word of French, my bizarre brain had come up with the notion that French Quebec would be the most difficult place in Canada for me to start off, and if I could manage to survive my first few months there, I would be able to survive anywhere in Canada.

I soon discovered that almost all the people in the City of Quebec simply refused to speak English (even though most could), and were ardent ‘Separatists’ who wanted French Quebec to have its own independence as a Nation-State from the remainder of Canada. The extreme ‘separatists’ were regularly planting bombs as the I.R.A. had done during their years of armed rebellion on the British shoreland, so I quickly moved base to Montreal City. Montreal was the most cosmopolitan of cities of diverse cultures. It was a veritable metropolis with many different ethnic neighbourhoods.

While I lodged in the private home of some English-speaking Canadians for my first month in Montreal, each day I would travel 15 miles into Montreal City to work in a textile factory which dyed hosiery. My previous dying experience in the mill enabled me to get this job, even without being able to speak the native language of all the textile employees (who were of Italian origin). That was a very strange experience as I was the only employee who was not Italian, and apart from the Italian Mill Manager (who could speak a few words of English, but whom I rarely saw since the first day he’d employed me), I would spend all my working day in silence, exchanging the odd smile with other workmates. 

My Italian workmates took me under their wing, and one couple even invited me to eat with them in their home one weekend. That day remains memorable, not because of the copious amount of vino I drank, but by me falling asleep on the bus on the return journey way to my flat. 

In Montreal City, all bus tickets cost the same price, whatever the distance travelled, but the same ticket may be used numerous times as long as one continues to go forward or horizontal but not backward. All streets in Montreal City are linear in design and criss-cross at right angles (they are straight and have no turnings). They were built and located parallel, horizontal, or vertical to each other on the big map. Consequently, one can get on and off the bus, and on another bus with the same bus ticket all day long, and it is even possible to travel up to fifteen miles in the same direction one way and ten miles the other way, providing one does not go back on themselves! 

At the end of the day, my Italian guests who’d wined and dined me put me on the bus in the evening in time for me to get back to my flat to watch ‘The Ed Sullivan Show’. I did not want to miss that week’s show as ‘The Beatles’ were appearing on the American show for the first time. Being heavily intoxicated, I fell asleep on the bus and was awakened by the bus driver at the end terminal. Being six or seven miles away from my flat with the ‘Ed Sullivan Show’ due to start fifteen minutes later, I had to get a cab back to the flat at great expense so as not to miss it!

Within one month I had changed employment and was working where I wanted to be working. I had obtained a position at ‘The Last Chance Saloon’ as a singer in a night-time club which employed three regular singers; each of whom provided three half-hour singing spots nightly, plus a fourth singer who would change with the week. I had been a pretty good pop singer since childhood and before coming to Canada, and I planned to make it big out there just as soon as some agent spotted my potential and launched me into international stardom. 

Also, this was the era of the Liverpool sound. ‘The Beatles’ had just hit it big and were becoming international stars globally. Indeed, the new sound and singers of the world were all coming out of Liverpool (less than 50 miles from my home base in West Yorkshire). 

The bottom line was that I thought I was the best pop singer in the whole of Canada at the time and when I discovered that I wasn’t and that there were other singers as good as me (and God forbid, some even better than me), I instantly packed in my singing career. My major character flaw at the time led me to prefer not to sing at all if I was not the best singer on the stage. In cricket-team analogy, if I wasn’t the best batsman on the field, I would pull up the stumps, walk back to the pavilion and take my bat home!

I should have picked up the hint on the ‘S.S.Sylvania’ over the Christmas period as I crossed the wild Atlantic Ocean. Between the ages of 7-21, I had entered many singing contests and had never lost a singing competition. My singing prizes naturally led to having an overinflated ego, and during my Christmas voyage to Canada, I naturally entered the New Year’s singing contest on the liner with the clear expectation of winning it. I was shocked when I came in second! 

The winner was an 8-year-old Shirley Temple lookalike who stole the hearts of the ship’s audience with her childlike gestures and ‘butter wouldn’t melt in her mouth’ expression that never once left her false face. It was only after this humiliating experience of having been beaten ‘by a child’ of inferior sing talent that I thought about the many older boys and adult singers I had also beaten in singing contests over my childhood years. For the very first time in my life, I started to wonder if I had also benefited from my child's image each time I had pushed an adult into second place in a singing contest during my childhood years?

For several months I worked on the ‘Canadian Pacific Railway’. My job was a modest one of low pay serving the train passengers with fruit and beverages, but the reason I worked on the trains was that it enabled me to go on the three-day runs across Canada and even cross into the USA. During this period, I had several memorable romances of brief duration, and on each occasion, managing to avoid marriage or any long-term commitment.

After I had moved to live in Toronto, I was working as a receptionist in an uptown hotel when I met a girl whom I instantly ‘fell in love with’, and for the first time in my life ‘stayed in love with’. We seriously considered a short engagement period followed by marriage. She was called Jenny Downton and was the eldest daughter of the British Trade Commissioner to Canada. After seven months of dating, while Jenny wanted to formalise our relationship by getting engaged after proposing not to go on to obtain her degree, I felt uneasy about such a move. I eventually decided that we essentially came from different worlds and so I broke off my relationship with her. 

Her parents were good people who had always accepted me and held no objection towards any possible engagement between us, but they did want Jenny to complete her planned degree course before contemplating any marriage plans. I just felt that our 4-year age gap made this the wrong time for her to decide on a long-term future with any person, let alone a man who could never provide her with a lifestyle to which she had probably grown too accustomed to abandon (without knowing it there and then). I never knew whether this was the right or wrong decision for me to make, and following my long-established pattern of behaviour, I allowed my head to rule my heart.

When I returned to West Yorkshire, I almost turned myself around and went back to Toronto on the next flight but did not. For several months I felt heartbroken and was emotionally lost at sea, but then I found myself dating a girl and falling in love again ‘on the rebound’.  I was now thinking more daily that the time for me to settle down was fast approaching. After a couple of years of courtship, and after she had completed her teaching qualifications at a Bradford College, we married during my 26th year of life. My days of being a bachelor were well and truly over. 

Love and peace Bill xxx
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Song For Today: 30th August 2020

30/8/2020

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I dedicate my song today to Doris Marwood who lives in Haworth. Doris is a member of the same church as me and Sheila. Doris celebrates her birthday today. Enjoy your day, Doris from Bill and Sheila xx

My song today is ‘All Alone Am I’. This song from 1962 was popularised by the American singer Brenda Lee. The song was originally composed by the Greek composer Manos Hatzidakis and recorded in Greek by Tzeni Karezi for the soundtrack of the film ‘To nisi ton genneon ‘(The Island of the Brave) The original song in Greek translates to ‘Don't ask the heaven’. Later, a new version of the song with English lyrics was produced by Owen Bradley and appeared as the title track on one of Brenda Lee's albums. 

‘All Alone Am I’ became a top 10 pop hit in both the US and the UK. The song peaked at Number 3 on the ‘Billboard Hot 100’ chart in November 1962 and reached Number 7 on the ‘UK Singles Chart’ in February 1963. The song also spent five weeks atop the ‘Billboard Easy Listening Chart’ in November and December 1962, Lee's only song to do so. 

In 1960, the Greek film ‘Never on Sunday’ was released to considerable acclaim, earning multiple Academy Award nominations in the US. The film's star, Merlina Mercouri was nominated for Best Actress, while the title song from the film won the Oscar for ‘Best Original Song’ for Greek musician Manos Hatzidakis who had composed the music used in the film. A melody that appeared in both ‘Never on Sunday’ and ‘The Island of the Brave’ was sent to Lee's management as a tune to be considered for the singer to record, and after being translated into English by Arthur Altman, became ‘All Alone Am I’.

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While I have always had many associates, I have tended to stick to a few close friends and have spent a great deal of my life ‘doing my own thing’. Because of extensive and serious body injuries caused by a traffic accident at the age of 11 years, I was in hospital nine months, having suffered a damage spine, a punctured lung, a crushed chest, and all of my limbs badly broken. I was unable to walk for almost three years after having been told by the medics that I would never walk again. I also missed out on over two years of schooling, and when I did walk again, I spent the next seven years until my 21st year of life engaged in every vigorous sport and balancing activity I could manage. This was to normalise my walking ability and standing posture as well as possible to compensate for two legs which were unequal in length and could not straighten or bend like they ought to.

All of this was only made possible by my dedication over a ten-year period of my life towards physical rehabilitation and the improvement of my functional mobility. To do this required much additional reading, learning, and practising eastern disciplines of pain control, mental imagery, progressive relaxation and transcendental meditation, along with breathing patterns, muscle control and posture balance exercises. Much of my spare time was taken up between the ages of 15 years and 21 years of age alone(when I was not working in textiles or out dancing and dating). I naturally became accustomed to my own company more than other young men of my age group, although my love of singing and rock and rolling, along with dating as many beautiful  young women as I could ensured that I was never alone whenever I chose not to be.

I suppose that when I look back over my life, I have always preferred my own company over long periods of time because my individual interests and physical self-improvement essentially marked me out as being different from the rest of my age group. My previous life experiences effectively estranged me from my natural peer group before I was a teenager and forced me to grow up before my time. My thinking patterns, my own behavioural responses to certain situations, my working methods and my various achievements have always made me different in respect of the level of independence I have always needed and displayed. 

Even in my late teens, I would often prefer the company of older women as a romantic requirement, and the conversation of older men of providing sufficient stimulation. When I became a Probation Officer, the Behaviour Modification learning I required for the methods I wanted to use were largely practised in America and were alien to this country. I needed to go outside the Probation Service for much of my learning and the specialised practices I wanted to engage in.  I would attend courses where the membership might be psychologists, psychiatric nurses, or even hypnotists. All the specialised books I read also had to be bought overseas from either America or France and Switzerland, and I remain totally grateful to the Probation Service for paying for them and the different types of courses I attended to facilitate my own successful method of working with clients and positively modifying their behaviour.  I can honestly say that for over 25 years of my work in the Probation Service, I was so engrossed in my own work and extensive research, that some days I would forget to take meal breaks between 9:00 am and 7:00 pm, and when I did eat, I tended to eat the unhealthy fat foods which were quick and ready to eat on the hoof.

Many colleagues would probably have thought me rather eccentric, some even arrogant, but most hopefully would have considered me a good work mate! Essentially, during my years to date, I have grown up in a world that I often seemed to occupy alone, and with a lifetime of experiences which have necessitated me being more of a loner than most men. I grew to like my own company early on in life.

Love and peace Bill xxx
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Song For Today: 29th August 2020

29/8/2020

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August 29th, 2020.
I dedicate my song today to Dave Rendle who lives in Cardigan, Ceredigion, UK and Cindy Solberg who lives in Denver, North Carolina, U.S.A. Both Dave and Cindy celebrate their birthdays today. I hope that your special day is the most enjoyable. Incidentally, one way of making your special day a little bit more memorable than usual is to make a new Facebook friend with a person with whom you share something important; your birthday!

My song today is ‘Baby I’m-a Want You’ which was recorded by Bread in their fourth album which was released in 1972. It reached Number 3 on the ‘Billboard Hot 100’ chart.

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Whenever I hear this song that begins with the words and sentiment, ‘I want you. I need you’ it always reminds me that as far as the body is concerned ‘needs must be met’ or something bad is going to be felt if they aren’t. This song always reinforces my long-held belief regarding the importance of our self-talk which every individual engages in constantly throughout our day. We may not be consciously aware that we are self-talking but take it from me that we are.

Self-talk is essentially the way we reinforce ourselves. It is the way we strengthen our resolve when we are determined to do anything, and it is also the foundation and cornerstone of our belief system. When we use terms like “You ‘must’ do this” because we have used the term ‘must’ we automatically signal to our brain and body that if we don’t follow through with our ‘must’, something bad will inevitably happen! For instance, saying that ‘Something ‘might ‘ happen is a rational alternative of signalling that “something ‘may’ happen”, but saying that “something ‘must’ happen’ signals that it ‘has’ to happen and if it doesn’t happen then we shall automatically feel bad! The same is true with words like ‘should’. Whereas we can stick with being rational by saying, “I would prefer it if you did this”, or “I don’t want you to do this, or “ I would not like it if you did this.” However, we then move to irrational self-talk when we say,‘ ”You should do this” because the word ‘should’ carries with it the automatic implication and consequence of what will happen ‘if’ we do not do that which we ‘should’ do!


Keep tabs on your self-talk as saying making irrational statements inside one’s head is just a harmful way of telling oneself untruths about what is or isn’t, or what will or won’t be! It leads to our thoughts and actions becoming emotionally exaggerated, leaving us with a wrong perspective of the situation we are a part of, and feeling much worse than how we ought to feel. It can also lead us to become emotionally disturbed unless the inaccurate things we tell ourselves are stopped in their track and are corrected by exchanging our irrational exaggerated, untrue and unverifiable statements for ones of a rational, truthful and verifiable nature.

Never forget that it is the thoughts in our brain which instruct the muscles in our body how to respond. There are only two body muscle instructions that our brain ever issues; relax or tense up! Never forget that it is our self-talk that directs and strengthens the messages we direct our brain to tell our body muscles. Never forget that (apart from a few exceptions) irrational beliefs harm our body and produces exaggerated emotional behaviour, while rational beliefs are helpful, and it is our self-talk which determines our beliefs. Never forget that our patterns of behaviour which either help or hinder us, make us happier or sadder in our daily lives, make our responses more rational or irrational always begins with our thoughts, which determine our feelings, which determine our action. Thoughts-Feelings-Action. The only way that our body can change what and how we do, and how we feel about what and how we do ‘is to change our thinking’. 

The paragraph typed above represents the entire knowledge I acquired in over 50 years of reading, studying, practise and learning to help change a person’s thoughts, feelings or actions for the better.

Love and peace Bill xxx
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Song For Today: 27th August 2020

27/8/2020

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My song today is, ‘Love Changes Everything’. This song is from the musical ‘Aspects of Love’ which was composed by Andrew Lloyd Webber, with lyrics written by Charles Hart and Don Black. It is first sung in the musical by the character Alex Dillingham, which was originated by Michael Ball in both the London and Broadway casts. The song was released as a single in 1989, and stayed in the UK singles chart for 14 weeks, peaking at Number 2 and becoming Ball's signature tune

In the prologue to ‘Aspects of Love’ a young Englishman, Alex, is lovestruck by a French actress, Rose. This upends his world, and he sings that ‘Love changes everything ... Love changes how you live and how you die’. He notes that love ‘makes fools of everyone’ and concludes that once love strikes, ‘nothing in the world will ever be the same.’ The song was featured at the 44th Tony Awards.

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There is little more that can be added about this song as the song’s words say it all! I can, however, testify to the many occasions that I have witnessed where the love of one person towards another has changed their lives significantly; usually for the better but sadly, not always so. People may want to ‘fall in love’ or ‘be in love’, but nobody chooses it; love happens! And when it happens, it changes one’s life beyond recognition. 

The annuls of history reveal that people have cheated, maimed, killed, died, and even gone to war because of the love of one person for another. There is no emotion as powerful as ‘love’, not even ‘hate’, and once smitten and love comes in the back door, all reason departs through the front door; leaving the couple totally wrapped up in each other tom the exclusion of everyone else. It isn’t that the couple in love have lost their capacity to care for others around them; it’s just that their eyes, and senses, and mind and body are totally preoccupied with the one they are in love with. That person has now become their whole world, their universe, their orbit of prime focus, and their sole concern.

That is where the saying of lovers ‘floating on cloud nine’ originates. How often have we heard someone describe a couple in love as two people who are totally absorbed in each other’s presence to the exclusion of all others, by saying things like, “Oh, it’s no good showing those two, they only have eyes for each other” or “Those two love birds are living in a different world. They’re on another planet!”

Consider for one moment married men and women who fall in love with another married person, each of whom are the parents of young and emotionally impressionable children. Imagine the devastation caused to the break of two family units and the lives of all concerned, where all the innocents are expected to set their feelings to one side so as not to impede the new love of two parents from different households! 

Often, such relationships develop from a conscious decision by two married people from different unions to have an affair, and yet occasionally, ‘love can happen’ in situations where there is no sexual impropriety at all. It is perfectly possible for two innocently married people from different unions, who have neither sought love nor any act of indiscretion outside their marriage to find themselves in circumstances with another married person, in which it is no longer possible to deny that they are ‘falling in love’. 

Remember, that love (not sex) is ever chosen; it happens? Perhaps such an example is one of those occasions where the love of one person is better put to one side in favour of a loyal and faithful spouse and a family of young children? 

I will never forget Bernard with whom I worked with for six years. Bernard had one of the worse starts in life. He was abandoned at birth by a mother he never knew and was raised in children’s homes. He had no blood siblings and at an early age, he started stealing and engaging in every act of theft and vandalism he could. He was the only young man I ever knew whose behaviour was so unacceptable that he served his full two-year sentence of Borstal without earning any remission. Borstal inmates usually received up to 50 per cent remission for good behaviour during the 1970s. 

During the 1970s, I set up a project between the Huddersfield Probation Office and all the surrounding churches. Through church bulletins, I advertised young men and women who were repeat offenders who had no positive family connections and asked for any Christian couple who was prepared to give them a home base as part of their family. We had a few fostering successes, but Bernard was not one of them. I did, however, place 19-year-old Bernard with a married couple in their late fifties. The couple concerned had parented one child; a son who had sadly been killed in a traffic accident six years earlier. Had their son lived, he would have been Bernard’s age.

For the first three weeks of Bernard’s placement all seemed to be going okay apart from a few expected teething issues. Then, one night after the fostering couple were sound asleep, Bernard (who had run away from children’s homes half a dozen times in the past), decided to steal what he could from the home of the kind couple who had taken him in, before leaving. He stole whatever money he could find and any small sellable items. One of the items stolen was a treasured framed photograph of the couple’s deceased son. Bernard removed the photograph from its silver frame and threw it away, to conceal the possible source of the silver frame from the person who eventually bought it. When Bernard was eventually caught, arrested, and produced before the court, his offence and record of previous convictions resulted in him being committed to the Crown Court where he received a sentence of 18 months in a Young Prison establishment at Thorpe Arch.

Over the following year, I visited Bernard monthly in prison without fail. On each visit, he never once spoke a word to me in either question or reply. I presumed at the time that he was so ashamed by what he had done that he considered total silence to be the best option as he was not the type who ever apologised. Each monthly prison visit by me to Thorpe Arch Young Prisoner establishment would witness me speaking to him for an hour without once getting one word in response.

About one year into my visits, my home circumstances were such that I should have remained off work that day, but instead, I made my usual planned monthly visit to see Bernard. The visit went as usual with total silence from Bernard. As I stood up to leave, I uncharacteristically lost my temper at his ungrateful response to me over the past year and I gave him a mouthful of what I thought of his behaviour; especially the despicable act of stealing and destroying a precious object from a loving couple who had taken him into their home and who had treated him as one of their family! I knew it was wholly unprofessional of me to have lost my temper, but I was so angry and disappointed with Bernard’s overall response to the kindness, love and consideration shown to him by people who’d cared about him (including myself). As I left his cell, he spoke to me for the first time in my previous year’s visits and uttered one sentence only, “Thank you for coming today, Mr Forde”.

I supervised Bernard on Youth Custody Licence following his prison release and we appeared to have made some modest headway through our weekly office conversations by the time his licence period had expired and his period of supervision with me came to an end. It was many years before I saw Bernard again, and as his name had not appeared on the Huddersfield Court list during the intervening period, I simply presumed that he had moved area, as people with Bernard’s track record rarely stopped offending completely.

Then, one day while I was walking through Huddersfield, a voice from behind me yelled, "Hi, Mr Forde!”. I turned around to see a smiling-faced Bernard with a young woman and two children, one infant in a pram and the other child walking alongside one of their parents. Bernard proudly introduced the young woman as his partner and the mother to their two children. Our brief conversation revealed that he had not offended since he had last seen me and that his partner had also been through Children’s Homes and the Social Service’s Residential homes since her childhood years. The two had met and had fallen in love four years earlier, and as today's song indicates, their lives were never the same again because their love for each other had ‘changed everything’.

Love and peace Bill xxx

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Song For Today: 26th August 2020

26/8/2020

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I dedicate my song today to all those lovers who look for a place ‘somehow, sometime, somewhere’.

My song today is, ‘Somewhere’ which is sometimes referred to as ‘Somewhere (There’s a Place for Us). This is a song from the 1957 Broadway musical ‘West Side Story’ that was made into a film of the same name in 1961. The music is composed by Leonard Bernstein with lyrics by Stephen Sondheim, and takes a phrase from the slow movement of Beethoven’s ‘Emporer’ Piano Concerto, which forms the start of the melody, and also a longer phrase from the main theme of Tchaikovsky’s  ‘Swan Lake’. 

In the original Broadway production, ‘Somewhere’ was sung by Reri Grist who played the role of Consuelo. At the end of the show, when Tony is shot, Maria sings the first few lines of the song as he dies in her arms. 

In the 1961 film, the song occurs at a pivotal point, after the rumble in which Tony (acted by Richard Beymer) has stabbed Maria's brother, Bernardo, (acted by George Chakiris). Having nowhere else to go, Tony runs to Maria ( acted by Natalie Wood), who has just been told of her brother's death and who killed him. When Tony comes to her room through the balcony window, Maria, in shock, pounds against his chest. In spite of her anger, Maria realises that she still loves Tony, and begs him to hold her. After Maria cries out, "It's not us...it's everything around us." Tony replies, "Then I'll take you away, where nothing can get to us." He then begins singing ‘Somewhere’ to her. His comforting voice draws her in, and it becomes a duet of hope that their love will survive "somehow, someday, somewhere." Maria sings the first few lines of the song as Tony dies in her arms. 

In 2004, this version finished at Number 20 on AFI’S ‘100 Years of the Best 100 Songs in American Cinemas’.Many popular singers have recorded ‘Somewhere’, and they include The Supremes: Barbra Streisand: Phil Collins: Pet Shop Boys: and P.J. Proby. The version which I recall and which moved me most of all was hearing P.J. Proby’s single that reached Number 6 on the ‘British Singles Chart’ and Number 7 on the ‘Australian Singles Chart’. Proby’s version of ‘Somewhere’ also charted well in various European countries.

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I remember being moved so much by P.J. Proby’s version of this song that I had it played during my first wedding ceremony. The song holds out that distant hope of all couples whose love for each other is threatened after their world has collapsed around them, that ‘somehow, someday, somewhere’ they will find peace of mind in a place where they can begin to live a new life together.

During my 27 years working as a Probation Officer, I witnessed many collapsed marriages that failed for one reason or another (my own included). Whenever any marriage or loving relationship ends, it hurts all parties concerned, especially if there are children born to the union.

The love between a couple is such a precious and precarious thing that every effort ought to be taken to nurture and preserve it. When the love between a couple stops, communication ends, and bitterness begins, the breakdown of their relationship inevitably follows. it would be nice if the separating man and wife were able to forgive each other, and want only good things for the other person, and still move on without them, but alas, such is rarely the scenario played out. No matter how hard one’s heart is broken or how raw one’s emotions weep at the point of breaking up, a lack of understanding, a degree of anger, and a mountain of intolerance often prevails. 

One's world is naturally turned upside down, especially where the lives and welfare of children to the marriage need to be determined. It is hard for either of the separated parties to understand that the world does not stop for them to get off, and remain paused in orbit until their emotions have settled down. There is always insufficient time after any marital separation that enables the couple to come to terms with their feelings of sadness, rejection, anger, and loss, especially if they are thrown immediately into the added difficulties of child access, financial hardship, maintenance matters, and the preparation for divorce proceedings. Separating couples often start to feel (rightly or wrongly) that friends and family are taking the wrong side and that nobody cares what degree of hurt has happened to them, and that they are on their own.

Then, there are cases of a stranger kind of love existing between two people that was never meant to be. The thing about love is that propriety goes out the window whenever love comes in the door. Love ‘happens’ between couples, whether it ever ought to or not, and is rarely planned. 

I once knew of two married couples who were the best of friends. They had married around the same time and lived next door to each other in the same modern crescent. The four people became the closest of friends, and the two wives would go shopping together and their husbands would play golf and drink together. The four of them danced, dined, entertained, partied, and holidayed together for nearly three years, until one morning, both marriage relationships abruptly ended. One of the wives had started an extramarital relationship with her best friend’s husband, and without any warning, the two lovers ran off together, leaving one duplicated letter of explanation for their distraught partners whom they abandoned with no forewarning. Fortunately, neither couple had started a family, and so there were no children to consider.

The upshot was that within one year of having been deserted by their spouses, the two abandoned parties (who initially began comforting and emotionally supporting each other), started living together in a new and reformed partnership. It was a case of ‘he stole my wife so I might as well steal his’ type of response. I am not aware of whether the newly reformed relationship worked out well for either couple.

The couple who I most vividly recall, however, who mirrored anything like the tragic circumstances of the characters Tony and Maria in the West Side Story musical, did not involve a bloody killing but instead a blood kinship issue. They were a brother and sister who found themselves falling in love with each other and eventually becoming lovers.

18 months age separated the older sibling and his younger sister. Their parent’s marriage had failed early in their relationship, and after the birth of their second child, their father deserted his wife and children and broke all contact. He was never heard of again, even after his wife and the mother of his children died in her late thirties from cancer. Both brother and sister were in their late teens and were able to continue the tenancy of their council house in Holmfirth, Huddersfield. For several years, the nature of their secret incestuous relationship remained undetected and their unusual closeness caused little suspicion to the neighbours and outsiders, given their unusual circumstances. 

I still remember first hearing about this situation between the brother and sister in the staff room at the Huddersfield Probation Office when the matter was raised in discussion. I wasn’t the Probation Officer concerned in the case of ‘incest’, but as the brother and sister were in their twenties, and their sexual relationship was considered as having been ‘consensual’, and because it involved no illegal marriage service, or any children born as a result of the relationship, no prosecution of the couple was ever proceeded with by the ‘Department of Prosecution’. 

Once the relationship became public knowledge within their locality, and the gossip followed them wherever they went, the brother and sister moved out of the area. It is not known whether they eventually found another place together, ‘somehow, someday, somewhere’.
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Love and peace Bill xxx
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Song For Today: 25th August 2020

25/8/2020

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I dedicate my song today to all out there who find it hard to believe in anything or anyone, especially those who cannot believe in themselves. Believe me when I tell you we are each born with a purpose to our life, and that reason is founded in the goodness of mankind and is only discovered when we start to become the good person we were meant to be and are.

My song today is, ‘I Believe’. This song was written by co-written by Ervin Drake, Irvin Graham, Jimmy Shirl and Al Stillman in 1953. ‘I Believe’ was introduced by Jane Froman on her television show. Troubled by the uprising of the ‘Korean War’ in 1952 so soon after ‘World War 11’, the song was commissioned when the composers were asked to write a song that would offer hope and faith to the populace. Froman's commercial recording reached Number 11 in the Billboard charts during a 10-week stay. ‘I Believe’ has been recorded by many others; the most notable being Frankie Laine, whose version spent eighteen non-consecutive weeks at the top of the ‘UK Singles Chart’. Frankie Laine also had the most successful version in the USA, where he reached Number 2.

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When I first heard this song, I was 11 years old and the singer was Frankie Laine. I had been knocked down by a wagon and run over. When the wagon stopped, my body had been twisted around the main-drive propeller shaft, leaving me close to death. My traffic accident left me with a damaged spine, a punctured lung, a crushed chest, and every limb in my body broken several times. This accident proved to be a life-defining moment for me that would fashion my future beliefs. Whatever I did in life, thereafter, was influenced by hearing from my semi-conscious state, my parents being told by the hospital doctor that I would be dead by the following morning; followed one month later by being told by the same hospital consultant that I would never walk again.

I was a patient in Batley Hospital for nine months, and by the day I left the hospital, while I was unable to walk, I had started to experience feelings below my waistline again(telling me that my spine was once more sending messages to my brain and muscles). What I did during my nine-month hospital stay helped me to realise my fervent belief that I would not only live but that I would one day walk again.

It took me the first thirteen years of my life to realise that one’s mind is more powerful than one’s body, particularly when it comes to influencing one’s future actions. I had suffered horrific body injuries, and when my parents were told by the medics “I’m afraid that your son will be dead by the morning.” I instantly said to myself, “Oh no I won’t!” Then, about one month later after my life was out of danger, and my damaged spine (which left me with no feeling below my waist) led the doctors to tell me and my parents, ‘I’m sorry, but your son, Billy, will never walk again,” again, I instinctively told myself, “Oh yes I will!”

It took me almost three years before I was able to walk again, by which time I had learned a great deal about the power of the mind over the body. During this time, I had effectively established a set of beliefs that served my prime purpose in life instead of militating against it. When western medicine offered me no hope of ever been able to walk again; when I was told that which my ears did not want to hear nor my heart believed, I turned to the doctrines of the east in India, Japan and China for my answers and source of inspiration.

As a young man, not yet a teenager, I read copiously about the functioning of the human body, about the channels and conductors of pain within one’s body, and about the importance of breathing patterns, muscle control, body posture, and balance. My school teacher, Mr, MacNamara, was a regular hospital visitor and he kindly obtained the books I wanted to read. My extensive reading was able to teach me the vital connection between brain and body. I learned about the power of mental imagery and how to stimulate muscle response by means of positive self-talk.

Before I left the hospital nine months later, I had regained my sense of feeling and pain in my legs. My damaged spine had ‘miraculously’ reconnected and had started sending signals to my brain again. During this nine-month period of hospitalisation, I had started to master transcendental meditation methods of the East, and I daily practised progressive relaxation (which I have continued ever since, and which I have taught, written upon, and instructed to hundreds of different groups).

Even at a young age of 11 years (going on 12), I quickly accepted that one’s belief is simply a matter of ‘made up mind’. I never forgot those words of wisdom by the title character in the play ‘Hamlet’ by William Shakespeare which suggests that all human knowledge is limited:
‘There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio,
Than are dreamt of in your philosophy.’ (Hamlet (1.5.167-168), Hamlet to Horatio).

As I grew older, I became more independent in both thought and action, but I would be thirty years old and on a training course in Newcastle-upon-Tyne to become a Probation Officer before I would read about the work of an American Behaviourist Albert Ellis. Here was a man who would change my life with his constructive relationship between belief and action.

Albert Ellis was an American psychologist, who in 1955 developed ‘Rational Emotive Behavior Therapy’. He held MA and PhD degrees in clinical psychology from Columbia University and the American Board of Professional Psychology. His methods became the forerunner to what today has developed into and has become known as ‘Cognitive Behaviour Therapy’.

Essentially, Ellis, expounded the view (now universally accepted by most clinical psychologists), that anyone who suffers from emotional disturbance possesses an ‘irrational belief system’ which leads them to be wrongly convinced that it was a bad event or incident in their past life which brought about the emotional disturbance they currently feel. Ellis’s methods tell them that this is not so. His method of ‘Rational Emotive Therapy’ (RET) illustrates the importance of one’s self-talk and their beliefs formed. It identifies the distinction between ‘rational beliefs’ and ‘irrational beliefs’, and it indicates the necessity to change one’s belief system whenever one’s health, happiness and hope factors are not helped by the beliefs one holds. Ellis says that there are some ‘irrational beliefs’ (unprovable beliefs) which are helpful and which make us feel and act as better humans, such as a religious belief, but in the main, he advocates that most irrational beliefs tend to be unhelpful beliefs.

Ellis reminds us that we talk to ourselves constantly in the form of silent thought communication. He tells us that some irrational words we use in our self-talk such as ‘should’ and ‘must’ need to be eradicated from our vocabulary because the use of such words simply leads one to exaggerate our feelings and actions. In emotional terms, we make ourselves feel much worse than is rational to feel in whatever our situation and circumstances happen to be.

A lifetime of working with people who exhibited problematic, addictive, and emotionally-disturbed behaviour has led me to conclude with certainty that you can do a thing only if you have the belief that it can be done. I have also learned that there is nothing or no person that is either ‘good’ or ‘bad’ that ‘thinking it’ so will not ‘make it so!’ If we apply this philosophy to ourselves, we come up with the inevitable conclusion that it is what we choose to believe that makes us the person we are and not the events we experience. Events and experiences may influence our thoughts and future behaviour, but they cannot determine it!

Beliefs are personal, unique, and typically, strongly held, whether they be rationally or irrationally based. We have often held our unhelpful and irrational beliefs for years (sometimes decades), and they may be deeply ingrained in our behaviour and response pattern. So, if we choose to abandon long-held irrational beliefs, we ought not to expect it to be any easier than breaking the addictive habit of smoking cigarettes (for example) that we have practiced for twenty or thirty years. We need to resist our temptation to relapse back into our old beliefs with vigour and determined and positive self-talk. There is a world of difference between the results brought about by saying ‘ I might -I may-I will- I shall’, and the energy required to bring about such differences in one’s action can be found in the use of a single word spoken. If a person is 100 percent determined to do something, they will never tell you “I might do this” or “I might do that”. Instead, (and at the very least), they will always say “I will do that” or at best say, “I SHALL DO THAT!”

Please believe me when I tell you that what truly distinguishes the many from the few is the ability to act according to one’s beliefs. Building a solid foundation of helpful and rational beliefs will keep one grounded in fact as well as enabling one to achieve the optimum possibility out of any situation. One's beliefs enable us to acquire the strength we need to overcome any of life’s obstacles. Few of us during our lifetime come anywhere close to exhausting the resources within our capacity, and we have deep wells of mental and physical strength which most of us never use. The real strength of any person will not be found in their physical capacity, but in their indomitable will to believe it possible. This is a force which resides not in one’s forearm, but inside the forehead.

I will leave you with one of my favourite quotations by Thomas Paine, an English-born American political activist, philosopher, political theorist, and revolutionary of the 18th century, who said:
“I love the man that can smile in trouble, that can gather strength from distress, and grow brave by reflection. ‘Tis the business of little minds to shrink, but he whose heart is firm, and whose conscience approves his conduct, will pursue his principles unto death.”

I believe that Albert Ellis and Thomas Paine would have made good and convivial companions by a warm fireside on a cold winter’s night drinking a flagon of ale.
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Love and peace Bill xxx
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Song For Today: 24th August 2020

24/8/2020

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I dedicate my song today to Alice O Mahoney who lives in County Tipperary, Ireland: Josephine Deegan who lives in County Waterford, Ireland, and Pat Hepworth who lives in Liversedge, West Yorkshire. All three ladies celebrate their birthday today. Have a great day and thank you for being my Facebook friend.

My song today is ‘Blue Bayou’. This song was written by Roy Orbison and Joe Melson. It was originally sung and recorded by Orbison in 1961, and who had an international hit with his version in 1963. It later became Linda Ronstadt’s signature song, with which she scored a Top 5 hit with her cover in 1977. The song has since been recorded by many others. The song also appeared on Orbison's 1963 full-length album ‘In Dreams’.

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This song was released in 1961 when I was aged 19 years. At that age, I was a fearless young man. I had dodged death at the age of 11 years after a large wagon had run over me and wrapped my twisted body around the main drive propeller shaft, leaving me with a damaged spine, a punctured lung, a crushed chest, and other life-threatening injuries. I spent nine months in the hospital and almost three years of being unable to walk.

Near to our house on Windybank Estate was a mile of inundated grass hills and fields called the Cunniver. Walking one mile down these fields was the quickest way of getting to Cleckheaton on foot; cutting a good mile off the traditional walking road to Cleckheaton. As a teenager, much of our time was spent down the Cunniver.

Towards the bottom was an area that brought one out onto Moorside. Nearby was a mill and a large tank of water beside it. During the hot summer months (and these were the years when the summers were always roasting hot and the winters were bitter cold), a number of the young men and young women from the Estate would walk down the Cunniver and swim in the large water area belonging to the mill. The water was deep, and the colour was closer to the shade of grey, but it was cool and refreshing.

I am not quite sure if we went to cool down in the water from the warmth of the sun, or to swim about for fun? Or to see the young women strip down to their bra and knickers before jumping in? All that I can recall was that males and females under 16 were not allowed and would be shooed away by the older water bathers if they showed up.

I do not know how daring this activity would be assessed as today, but I guess that swimming in private water in the high heat of summer would be considered dangerous and illegal, whilst stripping down to bare underclothes for a group of young men with testosterone levels ready to burst, and nubile women up for a laugh and a bit of fun and hanky-panky might be considered somewhat tame, given all the porn young eyes are now used to.

Whenever I hear today’s song, ‘Blue Bayou’, my mind goes not to the slow-moving streams and blue waters of Louisiana in the United States of America which are found in low-lying areas, but instead, I recall the low-lying area of the Cunniver basin in Moorside, Cleckheaton, West Yorkshire, and the grey mill water we swam and larked about in during hot summer evening; or was it the young women in their undies that I remember most of all?
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Love and peace Bill xxx

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Song For Today: 23rd August 2020

23/8/2020

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I dedicate my song today to Angela Watson who lives in London, England. Angel celebrates her birthday today. Enjoy your special day, Angela, and thank you for being my Facebook friend.

It is also the wedding anniversary of my son, James Forde and his wife Elisa Forde who lives in France. Enjoy your special day, Dad Forde and Sheila xx

My song today is ‘Build Me Up Buttercup’. This song was is a song written by Mike d’Abo and Tony Macaulay. It was released by the ‘Foundations’ in 1968 with Colin Young singing lead vocals. Young had replaced Clem Curtis during 1968 and this was the first ‘Foundations’ hit on which he sang.

The song reached Number 1 on the ‘Cash Box Top 100’ chart and Number 3 on the US ‘Billboard Hot 100’ chart in early 1969. It was also a Number 2 hit in the United Kingdom and was quickly certified Gold by the RIAA for sales of over a million US copies.

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I have never known anyone who was called ‘Buttercup’ apart from a cow. During the 1990s, I took a holiday travelling around part of Ireland. I was born in Ireland and have always loved going back there. Being in Ireland not only keeps me close to my spiritual roots but it also rejuvenates my spirits.

One of the boarding houses we stopped over at was in County Mayo. The owners took in one family only for B&B to supplement their income. County Mayo is fine farming land, as is most of Ireland.

We got very friendly with the owners of the small farmhouse that we stayed at over four days. They had one child, a son aged 24 years, and each morning when we had breakfast, (the owners and their paid guests always breakfasted together), before we had completed breakfast, the son would make his excuses and dash off to feed ‘his cow’ in a field half a mile away.

At first, we thought that the cow belonged to the owners and was kept for yielding milk, but we were soon corrected in our wrongful assumption. I cannot recall the breed of cow but was assured that it wasn’t ‘any old cow’ and that it had been bought for the specific purpose of breeding. The cow (nobody was allowed to refer to it as being a ‘beast’ without causing grave offence) apparently cost double the price of any ordinary cow and was much sturdier and larger.

We were told that it was one of the rarer cow breeds and that they had bought it as a 21st birthday present for their son a few years earlier at a cost of nearly £5,000 (Irish pounds). The parents had offered to buy their son a car as his 21st birthday present, but he opted for a certain breed of cow instead. We were also told that he was saving up every penny he had to get another of the same breed of the opposite sex, so he could mate and breed them. Golden calves of this cow breed were seemingly in high demand and commanded a lot of money.

Naturally, this cow with its magnificent golden coat wasn’t merely referred to as ‘the cow’. No! Not to have properly Christened such a fine-looking creature would have amounted to sacrilege itself in the young owner’s eyes. It was far too important an animal to have been given a mere number tag or referred to as ‘Silly old Moo’. The cow was called ‘Buttercup’ and seemingly the young owner spent all his spare time talking to it, grooming its immaculate coat, taking photographs of it, and presumably thinking of the years ahead when he would make his first shed-load of money from the commercial sale of the breed. It later transpired in conversation that ‘Buttercup’ took up every bit of spare time and every penny of the owner’s money in upkeep and saving up for a companion. He had even got the parish priest to bless ‘Buttercup’ with church holy water, and his parents were even surprised when he didn’t ask the parish priest to hold a baptismal naming ceremony at the altar rail during Sunday Mass.

As for having a girlfriend, the young owner’s parents said that their son wasn’t interested. He had seemingly once told them that having a girlfriend was too expensive a hobby for any rare cow breeder to pursue. He had also told his mother though that if he ever became a full-time farmer with a herd of rare cows and a hundred acres of pasture or more to tend to, he would take on a wife to help out with the amount of work involved. Apparently, loving any future wife would take second consideration to how good a worker she was.

Whenever I hear the song that I sing today, I think of this Irish holiday and this young man who asked to be bought a cow for his 21st birthday instead of a car, and who preferred to spend his summer evenings stroking it instead of getting himself off down to the pub or the local dance hall and putting his arms around the shoulders of a beautiful young Irish colleen instead!
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Love and peace Bill xxx
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Song For Today: 22nd August 2020

22/8/2020

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I dedicate my song today to three people who celebrate their birthday today and two close friends and neighbours who are celebrating their wedding anniversary. The birthday celebrants are my cousin Nigel Fanning who lives in Lives in Toowoomba, Queensland, Australia with his wife and children: Bessy Montana-Blessy Montana-Macam who lives in Manama, Bahrain and: Bridy Mc who lives in County Kilkenny in Ireland. Enjoy your special day everyone and thank you for being my Facebook friend.

I also dedicate my song today to close friends and neighbours of Sheila and mine. Dave and Miriam Adamson celebrate their 8th wedding anniversary today. Dave and Miriam are the same ages as me and Sheila, and they got married four months before us. You are a lovely couple. Enjoy your anniversary and let us hope that you have many more before you to celebrate.

My song today is ‘Bye Bye Love’. This popular song was written by Felice and Boudleaux Bryant and was published in 1957. It is best known in a debut recording by the Everly Brothers. The song reached Number 2 on the US ‘Billboard Hot 100’ pop chart and Number 1 on the ‘Cash Box Best Selling Record’ chart. The Everly Brothers' version also enjoyed major success as a country song, reaching Number 1 in the spring of 1957. ‘Bye Bye Love’ is ranked 210th on Rolling Stone magazine's list of ‘The 500 Greatest Songs of All Time’.

Incidentally, it was the first song Paul McCartney performed live on stage, with his brother Mike at a holiday camp in Filey, North Yorkshire. It was part of Rory Storm and The Hurricanes’ repertoire and a live version recorded in 1960 was released in 2012 on the album Live at the Jive Hive March 1960. The Beatles covered the song during the ‘Let It Be’ sessions in 1969. George Harrison did a cover for his 1974 album ‘Dark Horse’, changing some of the words. ‘Bye Bye Love’ has also been covered by Simon & Garfunkel.

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When this song was first released, I was a few months away from leaving school. A few months later, I had started working as a mill hand in a Cleckheaton textile firm. I had spent the time between 11-14 years of age unable to walk after having incurred a serious traffic accident which damaged my spine and left me with multiple life-threatening injuries. After my traffic accident, I was unable to walk for almost three years and required over four dozen operations on one of my most damaged legs. between the ages of 14-15, I spent a year learning to find my feet again. I had been left walking with a pronounced limp as my left leg was now three inches shorter than my right leg. For three years, between 14-17 years of age, I engaged in every sport and energetic activity which might improve my balance as well as transforming my ‘hobbling around’ to become more like a normal walking posture.

I even used the mental imagination exercises which I had previously used years earlier when my spine was damaged. I used mental imagery initially to regain the feeling of pain beneath my waistline where all sense of feeling disappeared for nine months after my accident due to my damaged spine. Having lost all my feeling below my waist, I knew that if I could feel pain in my legs once more, it would signify that feeling and life had returned to my lower limbs. That is why today I have a high pain threshold; not because of all the painful procedures and numerous operations I have experienced since my childhood, but because I do not perceive ‘pain’ to be a negative experience. 'Pain' is there when the body needs to indicate that something is wrong that requires correction. 'Pain' to me represents the presence of life’ and is a necessary feeling within the experience of ‘living’.

I also used mental imagery to help me minimise my walking limp. I discovered that when I walked, I limped badly after I had initially regained my mobility (not surprising when one considers that my left leg was now three inches shorter than my right leg). I practised imagining that when I walked, I did not walk with such a pronounced limp, and because of the power that the mind truly possesses over that of the body, in time I did not limp as badly as I otherwise would have done with a three-inch leg-length differential. Over the years, my body readjusted itself and my hips realigned themselves at a slanted angle. Somehow, my mental exercises had managed to significantly minimise my limp by automatically enabling me to roll my body forward in step as opposed to limping myself forward. In fact, it would be true to say that I had learned to 'roll with it'.

Whenever I used to hear the Everly brothers sing this song, I would think about the day when I might be able to wave ‘Bye, Bye’ to my walking limp. Then, one day I met a man in a pub in Hightown who had noticed over a number of times he had seen me in the pub how much I engaged in behaviour which attempted to disguise my limp. For instance, whenever I stood at the bar counter in the pub, I would automatically place my shortest leg on any available footrest that enabled me to stand at my tallest height. This posture would make my stance appear 'normal' from a distance and disguise the discrepancy in length between both of my legs. We spoke on several occasions at length and what he said made a lot of sense to me. I cannot recall his name, merely his advice.T

The man who taught me more about 'the art of limping' than anyone I ever knew. He told me that given all that had happened to me over the years, my legs had served me admirably. He also said, “and more importantly, the amount of pain that your legs have had to endure in the years following your accident suggests to me that they are some of the strongest of legs that any man could walk on”. He indicated that the fact they were no longer straight or even in length was of less importance than the fact that they had survived their ordeal and still walked the person who possessed them. “In future,” the man said, “when you walk on your legs, walk on them with pride that you walk at all!”

The man then told me something I would never forget; something which appealed to my romantic instincts at the time. He said, “Most women have a soft spot for any man who has limp, 'providing that he has learned to limp with pride!'”

That was the occasion when I was able to say ‘Bye Bye’ to another angry dragon I had harboured inside me for far too long. However, the one thing I will never say ‘Bye Bye’ to is ‘love’.
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Love and peace Bill xxx
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Song For Today: 21st August 2020

21/8/2020

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Today we celebrate three 'earth' birthdays and one 'heavenly' birthday.

I jointly dedicate my song today to Nicola Gunning who celebrates her birthday, and Chantal Drummond who lives in Portishead, North Somerset. Chantal also celebrates her birthday today. Thirdly, we celebrate the birthday of Maria Fowler Franey. Enjoy your special day, ladies, and thank you for being my Facebook friend.

We also celebrate the heavenly birthday of Sheila Forde’s first husband, Anton Murray, who died in 2007. He would have been 68 years old today. Happy heavenly birthday, Anton.

My song today is ‘Cathy’s Clown’. This song was written and recorded by ‘The Everly Brothers’ in 1960. The lyrics describe a man who has been wronged and publicly humiliated by his lover.

‘Cathy's Clown’ was noted for its unorthodox structure, such as beginning on a chorus and having bridges but no verses. The song was a worldwide success and the best-selling single of the Everly Brothers career. Due to its enduring influence on popular music the song was added to the ‘National Recording Registry’ of the ‘Library of Congress’ in 2013. It was the Everly Brothers fist single for ‘Warner Bros. and it sold over 8 million copies worldwide. It spent five weeks as Number 1 on the US Billboard Hot 100’ chart and was also Number 1 on the ‘R&B Chart’. Billboard ranked the song as the Number 3 song for the year 1960. Rolling Stone ranked the song as 149th in the magazine’s list of the ‘500 Greatest Songs of All Time’.

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I was going on 18 years of age when this song was recorded by the Everly Brothers in 1960. At the time I worked at ‘Harrison Gardeners Dyeworks’ in Hightown and was on the brink of making a name for myself. The firm had a few hundred male and female workers and was one of the oldest family textile firms in West Yorkshire. The shop steward position within the firm was an important post, and the duties of shop steward had to be carried out in addition to one’s own paid functions as a dyehouse vat operative.

As my 18th birthday approached, the position for shop steward became vacant after much discontent had been voiced by the workers with the previous shop steward’s failure to achieve an increase in the wage of dying vat operatives. I was a well-read individual who was as intellectual as most men. I was also very politically inclined at the time and was confident in both speech and performance in addressing crowds. It was suggested by one of the workers that, despite my young age, I would make as good a shop steward as any other male employee at the firm. My name was formerly proposed, I agreed to stand, and was duly elected as the shop steward. In becoming the firm’s shop steward, I became the youngest trade union shop steward in Great Britain, and I made the national press. I remained a shop steward for the following three years until I went to live in Canada at the age of 21 years.

When I became the shop steward, the family firm had never experienced a strike since it had first opened in the previous century. Before the firm closed down around the New Millennium, the employers would have witnessed two strikes. The first strike (which lasted one week) was called by myself as the shop steward during my 19th year of life, and the second strike was called by my brother Patrick, who also became a long-standing shop steward there during the 1980s.

The strike I called (because of the unusual circumstances surrounding it), became a Cause Célèbre, which was reported by the national press as well as every regional newspaper in West Yorkshire. 1960s England was not a welcoming place for any immigrant to live, and racist attitudes towards any person who was either brown or black in skin colour had been deeply embedded in the national psyche for centuries. The country’s racism was institutionally embedded in our daily customs and could be openly found in every walk of life. Black people were not allowed trade-union membership and were banned from all forms of club membership. The only jobs they could get were in low-paid positions that English workers would not perform. Interracial relationships between any black and white person were socially shunned and frowned upon, and landlords would openly display notices in their boarding-house windows that boldly said, ‘No Blacks. No Dogs! No Irish!’

During my second year of being the firm’s shop steward, a West Indian man saw a vacancy being advertised at ‘Harrison Gardener’s Dyeworks’ and applied for the post. In the 1960s, as soon as any firm had a vacancy, the job would be publicly displayed outside the firm's gates. A passing unemployed West Indian male saw that a vacancy existed and applied for the post, but was immediately denied the position on the grounds of his skin colour. The matter was brought to my attention as the shop steward.

At the time, I was on the fringe of asking the bosses for a penny an hour increase on each batch of work carried out in the Dye House. Also, ever since the age of 11 years, when a West Indian surgeon had operated on me and had saved my life at the Batley Hospital (after a wagon had run over me and had left me with life-threatening injuries), I had been an early advocator against all manner of racism. So, I enjoined the two aspects I cared about most; a wage increase for the workers, and the right of the unemployed West Indian man to fill a current vacancy at the firm, and I persuaded the workers to come out on strike until the employers changed their minds on both counts.

Given the two issues, I will concede that most of the striking workforce was more concerned in getting a wage increase than fighting for the rights of any minority black worker to secure a vacant job at the firm, but given the blatantly racist age we lived in at the time, I was still proud that the men and women workers allowed me to also make the rights of the West Indian job seeker a joint reason for striking.

Naturally, the issue that the national and regional press seized upon was the one concerning the employer’s refusal to allow an unemployed West Indian male to fill a job vacancy on the grounds of his skin colour. The mill owner’s objection to the vacant position being filled by a black man gave this racial dispute a more human face to write about. Being one of the most pressing and prejudicial issues of the day, ‘Race’ was the storyline adopted by the press. The fact that a white work-force was willing to come out on the very first strike that ‘Harrison Gardeners’ Dyeworks’ had ever had since it had first opened, and which was also led by Great Britain’s youngest trade-union textile shop steward, ensured that we received maximum media coverage in the national and regional press again!

The employers relented after one week of having been hit with their first strike in a century and the workers received their wage rise. It was also agreed that the West Indian would be employed in the vacant post. However, whether because of the wide publicity or some other factor, the West Indian male refused to take the job, which left the taste of victory in my mouth somewhat more academic than real.

Following this episode in my life as a shop steward, the trade union movement wanted to fast track me in their organisation, and I was offered a university scholarship at ‘Ruskin College’. Under normal circumstances, I would have been immensely proud and only too willing to have accepted the trade union offer, and studied for a degree; with all the prospects of becoming a highly-paid regional trade-union official, and maybe even a future trade-union funded labour political candidate. I declined.

Ever since the age of being a teenager, I had dreamed of going to Canada and travelling around some of the United States when I was 21 years old. I had won many singing contests since childhood, and I also dreamed of one day making a successful living as a professional pop singer. I had been awarded a sizable amount of compensation from my childhood traffic accident, which would be available to me when I became 21 years of age, and I knew money would act as financial security for my planned few years abroad.
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Love and peace Bill xxx
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Song For Today: 20th August 2020

20/8/2020

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I dedicate my song today to my wife, Sheila’s youngest niece, Victoria Daramy-Williams, who is an undergraduate, and whose mother and siblings live in Leeds, West Yorkshire. Victoria is 21 years old today. Her father, Winston, (my wife, Sheila Forde's only sibling) is being cremated in Leeds tomorrow. I hope that you can find some happiness within your special day, Victoria. Uncle Billy and Sheila xxx

I also dedicate my song today to,Tonya Ginn, who lives in Winston-Salem, North Carolina in the U.S.A. Tonya celebrates her birthday today. Enjoy your special day as much as you possibly can, Tonya, and thank you for being my Facebook friend.

My song today is ‘Daniel’. This ballad was performed by Elton John and was co-written by Elton and his lyricist, Bernie Taupin. It appeared on the 1973 album ‘Don’t Shoot Me, I’m Only the Piano Player’. The song reached the Number 4 spot in the United Kingdom's official chart. In the U.S.A. the song reached Number 2 on the pop charts and Number 1 on the ‘Adult Contemporary Chart’. In the United States, the record was certified ‘Gold’ in September 1995 and ‘Platinum in May 2018 by the RIAA. In Canada, it became Elton’s second Number 1 single, following ‘Crocodile Rock’ earlier in the year in the ‘RPM 100 National Singles Chart’. Elton John and Bernie Taupin received the ‘Ivor Novello Award for Best Song Musically and Lyrically’ in 1973.

Bernie Taupin wrote the song's lyrics after reading an article about a Vietnam War veteran who had been wounded and wanted to get away from the attention he was receiving when he went back home. The last verse in the original draft was cut from the final version, which has led to some speculation on the contents.

"'Daniel' had been the most misinterpreted song that we'd ever written," explained Taupin, in the ‘Two Rooms Project’. "The story was about a guy that went back to a small town in Texas, returning from the Vietnam War. They lauded him when he came home and treated him like a hero. But he just wanted to go home, go back to the farm, and try to get back to the life that he'd led before. I wanted to write something that was sympathetic to the people that came home."

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I had recently joined the Probation Service as a Probation Officer in Huddersfield when this song was first released, and far from living a simple life at the time, my own life was hectic with me having too much to do and not enough time to seemingly do it in. Whenever I look back over the past 77 years, I find that I have always been busy doing this or that.

When I joined the Probation Service, I had a burning ambition to change the world, and can probably make some small claim in helping to have done so marginally, by going on to pioneer ‘Anger Management’ which mushroomed across the English speaking world within two years of my founding and launching the process. 'Anger Management' is a method of how best to change problematic aggressive behaviour and to maintain any positive changes made.

I was also one of the country’s leading exponents in Relaxation Training, having extensively studied and practiced this method of deep meditation since a life-threatening accident I incurred at the age of 11 years which resulted in me being unable to walk for three years (despite being told by the medics following a damaged spine that I would never walk again). Over a quarter of a century working in the Probation Service, I took my Relaxation Training programmes into probation offices, hostels, hospitals, psychiatric institutions, educational establishments, prisons, churches, community halls, as well as into the training courses of university students, probation officers, psychiatric nurses, fire officers, police officers, psychologists, and even trainee psychiatrists.

The bulk of my work and research in the latter half of my 28-year career led me to concentrate on the major components which go to make up the behaviour and response pattern of individuals, along with seeking confirmable methods of accessing our involuntary responses and voluntarising them through a combination of progressive relaxation and self-hypnosis.

During my career, my pioneering work was mentioned and reported on in a number of European Social-Work books and publications, and in addition, between 1990 and 2016, I wrote over five dozen novels and children storybooks, whose total profits went to charitable causes (over £200,000 given to charity between 1990 and 2003).

I retired early from the Probation Service in my early fifties because of arthritic problems which had gradually diminished my mobility. However, I still carried on with my charitable work. My charitable work proved to be highly successful; no doubt helped in no small measure by the support I obtained from world-famous people. After the late Princess Diana contacted me during the 1990s and asked for me to send her two of my children’s books to read to the two young princes, William and Harry, at their bedtime, my charitable books and writing received popular acclaim in my home county of West Yorkshire. Then, I received the endorsement of my work as being of ‘High-quality literature’ in a press interview which was given to the Guardian newspaper by the ‘Chief Inspector for Ofsted’ at the time (Chris Woodhead), after he had read from one of my books in a school in Liversedge, West Yorkshire. This helped me enormously with all schools I was to visit between 1990-2000 (over 2000 Yorkshire school storytelling assemblies held) having the quality of my writing educationally endorsed by the highest school academic body in Great Britain. My acclaim as an author, however, was finally stamped after I received a personal telephone call to my home in the year 2000 by South African President, Nelson Mandela, to praise the writing of two of my published books about South Africa I had written for children and young persons.

After the news of Nelson Mandela’s phone call praising my writing was televised on ‘News 24’, I was invited to promote and manage a trans-Atlantic pen-pal project with the Jamaican Minister of Education and the 32 schools in Falmouth, Jamaica. The project also involved me liaising with the Mayor (known as the Custos) of Trelawney and other Jamaican educational dignitaries in Falmouth (the old-world slave capital). I enlisted 32 Yorkshire schools on this side of the Atlantic Ocean whose pupils were predominantly of white skin in this pen-pal project with the 32 Falmouth schools in Jamaica. The main purpose was to increase the black and white pupils’ awareness of each other’s customs with a view of improving their multi-cultural understanding and decreasing any future likelihood of racist behaviour and attitudes existing between these black and white pen-pal pupils. In addition, I wrote, funded, managed, and arranged for the publication of a further four books specifically to raise much-needed cash for vital school equipment and resources in the heavily under-resourced Falmouth schools. Many thousands of my books were shipped across to Jamaica and sold there to raise tens of thousands of pounds for the Falmouth schools. My greatest pride was to see these books placed on the school curriculum as well as the school library shelves in Falmouth, Jamaica.

I had to withdraw from this project after two years (just before my 60th birthday), because of serious health issues, after making a couple of visits to all the schools In Falmouth, Jamaica. Within a one-week period, I was to experience two heart attacks, the second of which almost killed me and left me unconscious for four days while my family assembled around my death bed in Leeds General Hospital saying their final farewells. My heart attacks obliged me to ‘slow down’ and to reduce the massive workload I had sustained over several decades non-stop, ever since I had joined the Probation Service in 1971.

Today's song which deals with ‘the seeking of a quieter way of life’ resonates strongly with me. When I met and fell in love with Sheila in 2010, I had been divorced three years and never anticipated finding love again with another woman at my age of life. Sheila is a beautiful woman (inside and out) and being 14 years younger than myself and ten times fitter (she was a Yoga Instructor), I considered myself extremely lucky to have discovered such a pearl in my old age. Following a two-year courtship, we got married on my 70th birthday in November 2012, and for once in my life, I looked forward to living that simpler and easier life with my beautiful new wife.

Three months after our marriage, I was diagnosed with terminal blood cancer. My blood cancer was incurable cancer which would give me other body cancers the longer I lived. Since my initial diagnosis (which offered me a life span of around 3 years according to European medical statistics), the previous busy work life I had experienced prior to my heart attacks was merely changed with Sheila and myself having to deal with one cancer after another, along with ongoing operations and treatment procedures non-stop since 2012. Since my marriage to Sheila, I have had eight cancer operations (six operations within the past 18 months), two nine-month courses of chemotherapy, three years of monthly blood transfusions, and forty sessions of radiotherapy. I have recently developed blood clots in my urinary tract, and I am currently being examined for the likelihood of another cancer having developed in my urinary tract.

And yet, believe me when I tell you that my life has never been happier than since I first met Sheila. We have remained busier than we ever hoped for initially with the appearance of one medical problem appearing after another with me. We did, however, manage to create our own peaceful haven in our allotment where we spend as much time as our weather and circumstances allow.

Being prone to catch any infection or germ doing the rounds ever since I was first diagnosed almost 8 years ago, because of my lack of any effective immune system, other people’s colds become my instant pneumonia and their germs and infections can prove fatal for me. In my ways, because of the daily game of Russian Roulette I play with my life whenever I am in contact with another human being, I have effectively experienced a life of increased isolation and shielding since March 2013, whereas the present national lockdown caused by the Covid-19 pandemic virus has only been intermittently experienced by the nation since March of 2020. I have now been in a situation of intermittent 'lockdown' conditions, necessitating a restrictive form of shielding from other humans since March 2013, and the imminent emergence of any effective virus vaccine is unlikely to change my shielding circumstances during the remainder of my life, apart from giving me one less infection to worry about.

That is why our allotment represents our peaceful and relaxing haven as there are no infectious humans to be found there; only innocent flowers, nutritious vegetables, beautiful plants, and a wide variety of shrubs, insects, birds and all manner of wonderful nature.
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Love and peace Bill xxx
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Song For Today: 19th August 2020

19/8/2020

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I dedicate my song today to Ber Mulvaney. It is Ber’s birthday today. Enjoy your special day, Ber, and thank you for being my Facebook friend.

My song today is, ‘And the Grass Won’t Pay No Mind’. The song was recorded by Neil Diamond. Neil, who was born in 1941, is an American singer-songwriter and actor. He has sold more than 100 million records worldwide, making him one of the best-selling musicians of all time.

He has had ten Number 1 singles on the Hot 100 and Adult Contemporary charts. Neil Diamond was inducted into the ‘Songwriters Hall of Fame’ in 1984 and into the ‘Rock and Roll Hall of Fame’ in 2011, and he received the ‘Sammy Cahn Lifetime Achievement Award’ in 2000. In 2011, he was an honouree at the ‘Kennedy Centre Honours’, and he received the ‘Grammy Lifetime Achievement Award in 2018.

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The most poignant line in this Neil Diamond song for me is “The moment we’re living in is now.” How true this statement is! So often in life, too many of us are in danger of missing out of the ‘here and now’ because of our constant focus in either looking back on negative past events or looking forward to the fears of what might or might not happen tomorrow or the day after. We must never forget that the stuff of life is made from trillions of present moments, and to miss out on any moment is to miss out on one’s life!

When my father was alive, despite being a strict practising Catholic, he always displayed a Calvinist attitude towards industriousness and strongly believed in the Protestant work ethic. This overall belief and behaviour of my father were essentially emphasised and embraced within his value structure. He never gave less than his best in any job he ever undertook, however menial the task. His advice to me was, “Billy, never consider any job beneath you. Whatever you do, do it to the best of your ability, and if you come home at the end of a day’s work and you are not tired, then you have not done your best!”

My father was reared in the poorest of circumstances in County Kilkenny, Ireland. He left school to earn a living, missing much of his formal education before he had barely reached his teens. He was a good man of honest and modest means; a determined character whose strict discipline and industriousness made him popular with any employer he ever worked for. Dad rarely mixed in social company and could never have been considered a ‘conversationalist’. He only spoke in company whenever he was asked something specific or when he had something relevant to say. Few people disliked him, yet he never sought popularity and had few close friends. Neighbours considered him to be ‘a perfect gentleman’, and only mum and his children knew such wasn’t the case should ever he get angry!

My father’s overriding virtue was that of modesty (a characteristic which never blessed my door, unfortunately). For example, he was considered one of the finest soccer players ever to play for County Kilkenny, and he even played in the Irish International soccer squad for a few years before he was married; and yet, I never learned of this fact before I was aged ten! He once returned to County Kilkenny alone when I was 10 years old to see some close friends and was given a soccer hero’s welcome. He arrived in Kilkenny and was met by a brass band who marched him triumphantly through the town. When he returned to England, he never said a word about his brass-band welcome, and it was only after his friends had posted newspaper cuttings of the event to my mother that we learned of County Kilkenny’s warm welcome for my father!

When it came to sheer labour and the use of muscle and sweat, dad was up there with the best of them. However, he was never the type of handyman who could put up a shelf which was guaranteed to remain up and affixed to the wall after the least weight had been placed on it. Dad was too heavy-handed in most things he did, which is great when it involves sacks of coal or hundredweight sacks of spuds that require lifting and carrying, but not so good when any gentle task requiring a lighter touch was required. It is little wonder that dad never changed a nappy in his life despite fathering seven children!

Dad was unsophisticated, uneducated, and unassuming. His knowledge of the full colour spectrum was extremely limited. His preferred colour was green. In fact, everything he ever painted, he painted a bold Irish, grass-coloured shade of green! Everything about the home which required a touch of paint, whether a wall, wooden table, skirting board, window frame or door, dad painted in his favourite shade of green.

Dad was a fresh air fiend and he always insisted upon having every window in the house open, whatever the temperature, whenever the season. He and mum must have spent half their married life with each of them opening and closing house windows as they followed each other attempting to undo the action of the other. Whenever dad saw a closed window he would immediately open it to allow the tobacco smoke from my chain-smoking mum to exit from the house and to allow some fresh air back in, while my mother (who never liked the cold) would follow him around the house like a stalking shadow closing all the windows again! All they ever managed to achieve throughout my childhood with their open/closed window antics was to create a perpetual draught!

All council houses then (unlike any house today, private or council-owned) had large back and front gardens. While my father was no natural gardener, he loved the fresh air and being outside more than anything else. He neither smoked nor drank alcohol, and his only pleasure was taking long walks, and cutting the green hedge around our council house, and mowing the huge lawns (back and front) daily with a second-hand manual mower that he purchased for five shillings and daily oiled. Dad did not know anything all about growing flowers, vegetables and plants, and the only plants or shrubs we had in our large garden was the green perimeter hedge, plus one hydrangea and one red rose which my mother had planted outside the front window.

When my father was in his late fifties, the old gardener at Cleckheaton parish church retired. Considering himself to be a much better grass cutter than the retiring gardener ever was, my father offered to take over the grass cutting of the large church lawn three afternoons weekly for free. He and mum had recently moved to a council flat in the Liversedge/Heckmondwike area after all their children had married and left home. My father would cycle the four-mile return journey from Liversedge to Cleckheaton every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday to cut the church grass.

After all of the children had grown and left home, and my parents moved into a council flat, my mother appeared to resent my father’s constant absence from her sight, especially when he elected to work for free cutting church grass three times weekly besides going on long walks whenever the weather was fine. Whenever my mum complained about my father’s absence on the occasions he cycled into Cleckheaton to cut the church grass, my dad would often taunt her with a biblical quote from the scriptures. He would tell her that it was sinful to complain about his absence from home during these three days of the week while he was cutting the church grass because “’ he was about his heavenly Father’s business’ and that he was cutting the church grass for God”. He also reminded my mother (who always believed that he should have received some payment from the parish priest for his grass-cutting labour) that he loved cutting Catholic Church grass ‘for free’ and ‘for the church’ and ‘for God. Thinking him too sanctimonious in attitude, my mum would taunt him in reply with the accusation, “ You’re not cutting it for free, Paddy Forde; you’re cutting it as a penance for all the sins you daren’t confess to the priest!”

For over ten years, my father cycled the four miles to and from Cleckheaton Roman Catholic Church to cut the grass three times weekly. During his early seventies, he started having dizzy spells and fell off his bicycle several times as he travelled the ever-busy road to and from Cleckheaton. Dad cut the church grass until he died at the age of 75 years, and I recall making some mention at his funeral service that he would be the happiest newest entrant into Paradise if God made him the official grass cutter in heaven for the rest of eternity.

The first time I heard the song I sing today, I instantly thought about my father cutting the grass at every opportunity he could. While my father never used the precise words that frame the title of my song today, he often said, “The grass won’t mind”.
I love you, Dad. Your firstborn, Billy Forde x
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Love and peace Bill xxx
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Song For Today: 18th August 2020

18/8/2020

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August 18th, 2020’. 
I dedicate my song today to my niece, Sharon Jones, who lives in Hightown, Liversedge, West Yorkshire with her husband, Steven Sharon Jones. Sharon is the daughter of my brother, Patrick Forde and my sister-in-law, Elaine Forde. Sharon celebrates her birthday today. Enjoy your special day, Sharon. I will let you into a secret (providing you do not tell all my other nieces), but I have always regarded you as my favourite niece.

My song today is ‘It Wasn’t His Child’. This song appeared on the first Christmas album of country singer, Trisha Yearwood (‘The Sweetest Gift’). While the song only managed to peak at Number 60 in the ‘Billboard Hot 100’ chart, the album rose to Number 17 in the ‘Country Albums Chart’.

This song was written and originally recorded by Skip Ewing. Sawer Brown released the song on their 1988 album ‘Open Wide’. It was released as a single and only reached Number 51 on the U.S. ’Billboard Country Chart’. 
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I only heard this song recently for the very first time, despite it having been released 32 years ago. The version that I heard was by the country singer Trisha Yearwood. It is a beautiful and much-underrated song, and I am surprised it never climbed higher up the charts when it was initially released, and especially at any Christmas time since.

When I got divorced and remarried, my wife already had a child to a previous marriage, our Matthew. I recall when myself and Matthew’s mother had two children to our union, and the two children from my first marriage would visit on access, I could not stomach the descriptive terminology of ‘half-brother’ or ‘half-sister’. I was trying to establish a new family unit and I had no intention of seeing it fractured in the early stage by the divisive use of fractions whenever referring to siblings born to different blood parents.

Forming a new family unit by a couple, each of whom is a divorced parent is not easy, as anyone who has ever been in this situation will know. I recall that my step-son, Matthew, was having regular access to his father and grandparents at the same time as I was being denied access to the two children of my own first marriage by their mother. My own unsatisfactory access situation probably led me to better understand how Matthew’s dad felt about his own access situation and current role in the life of his son, and I ensured that Matthew saw his father regularly. To make things work out between myself and Matthew, I needed to learn how to involve myself in matters relating to his ongoing welfare while also learning to step back on occasions and enable his blood father to do certain things and perform certain roles in the life and development of his own son. While I have never in my life treated our Matthew different to any of my other four children, and regard him and love him as I do all my children, I never once encouraged him to call me ‘dad’ during his childhood years. I was conscious of never wishing to usurp the position of his blood father who is a good man.

During more recent years since I married Sheila, when I now message Matthew daily, I always sign off with ‘Love you, Dad Bill’. I feel perfectly at home using this terminology as it acknowledges that Matthew has myself as a father figure as well as his own blood father. 

During my 27 years as a Probation Officer, I had a great deal of contact with social workers from the Social Services Department. At the time of my entry into the Probation Service in 1970, there were more and more children being taken into ‘Care of the Local Authority’ at an alarming frequency. It was not uncommon for Probation Officers during the 1970s to come across young adult offenders who had spent all their lives since infancy in Care. Many of them had been brought up in foster homes, in between spending alternative periods in ‘Local Authority Residential Homes’. 

The children and young persons with the most difficult behaviour patterns were naturally the most difficult children to place with foster parents in the hope of any long-term foster placement working out. When a child with entrenched problematic behaviour is taken on by a new foster parent, the expectations of the foster-child placement not lasting long is too often borne out. In some ways, it is as though the fostered child is testing out the likelihood of being rejected again (just as many newly-adopted children are prone to do). Often, in an attempt to justify their own fatalistic belief system, the fostered child effectively engages in bringing about 'a self-fulfilling prophecy'. Many of these fostered children had been taken from their parents early on in their childhood years and placed in ‘Care of the Local Authority’ for either residential homing, adoption or fostering. Some had been abandoned as infants, many had been cruelly treated by a parent or parental substitute; and some had been the victim of sexual abuse by parents, family members, and even Local Authority Residential Workers!

It takes a special kind of person/couple to be good foster parents. Some things need to be learned but much more is to do with the natural inclination of the foster parent to express unqualified love, consideration, patience, understanding and an abundance of stamina. Often, the good foster parent (like any natural good parent) will need to stand firm and express what is sometimes called ‘tough love’ for the learning and well-being of their fostered child; especially when they start ‘acting out’ any repressed anger and indulging in unacceptable aggressive behaviour. A good foster parent needs to be able to ‘stay with’ the difficult fostered child instead of throwing in the towel and passing the child back to Social Services for ‘replacement’ the first time the child behaves unacceptably.  

I have known and worked with some people who went in and out of Residential Homes as well as having experienced as many as half a dozen foster-parent placements which didn’t work out. A good foster parent is worth their weight in gold to the child concerned, to society at large, and to all the other children in the system who might one day follow them into Care. It is not surprising to find that the best foster parents who ‘cut the mustard’ not only raise the largest and happiest of foster families but when the time comes and they are too old to take on new foster children, they still put their natural caring qualities to good use. They can be found voluntarily helping out others in their community or even become full-time carers to their poorly loved ones and incapacitated spouses. 

The caring of people who naturally make good foster parents never stops, no more than being a ‘good person’ ever stops being a ‘good person’. Caring, loving, understanding, and helping, and many more positive characteristics, are just a part of the natural makeup of the ‘good person’, the ‘good friend’, or the ‘good neighbour’, as well as the ‘good foster parent’. From within their core of ‘goodness’, loving and caring spring forth as their most natural qualities, and these characteristic traits stay with them until the day they die. 

Most of us are lucky to know such worthy people, especially children who were not born of their blood and had a difficult start in life because of a broken family situation.
Love and peace Bill xxx
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Song For Today: 17th August 2020

17/8/2020

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I dedicate my song today to my niece Emily Forde who is the daughter of my brother Peter and sister-in-law Linda Forde, and the mother of her son Joseph. Emily celebrates her birthday today. I hope that you enjoy your special day, Emily. I will let you into a little secret, Emily, ‘you are my favourite niece from all of them’, BUT DO NOT EVER TELL THE OTHERS!

My song today is ‘Devil Woman’ which Cliff Richards recorded in a 1976 single from his album ‘I’m Nearly Famous’. The song was written by Terry Britten and Christine Holmes. The song is told from the point of a view of a man jinxed from an encounter with a stray cat with evil eyes, and his discovery that the psychic medium (a Gypsy woman) whose help he sought to break the curse was the one responsible for the curse in the first place. However, the nature of the curse is not made clear.

Released in late April 1976, ‘Devil Woman’ made its way up to Number 9 on the ‘UK Singles Chart’. It became Richard's first single to reach the Top 20 in the US, making Number 6 on the ‘Billboard Hot 100’, making it Cliff Richard's highest-peaking single and biggest seller in the US. ‘Devil Woman’ is the third biggest-selling Cliff Richard single with over two million copies sold worldwide. It was certified Gold by the RIAA in the US and the CRIA in Canada.

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Of all the women I have met and known, I cannot really say that any one of them was what I would call a ‘Devil Woman’.

I have known all kinds of women, and some kinds who I wish I had never known at all. I have known virtuous women and bad women: tall women and short women: long-haired women and short-haired women: blonde-haired women, black-haired women, red-haired women, auburn-haired women, and women with straight hair, curly hair, wavy hair. I have known brown-eyed women and blue-eyed women: Christian women, Jewish women, agnostic women, and women who were atheists.

I have known women who followed the stars and planned their everyday lives and major decisions around the position of the planets at any given time. I have known women who believed in free love, women who believed in total celibacy, and women who believed in polygamous relationships, along with women who believed in nothing and everything imaginable. I have known women who loved a man before entering the sisterhood to become a nun and nuns who left the sisterhood because of their newfound love of a man. I have known many women who were proud mothers to priests, as well as having knowledge of several priests who secretly fathered children to parishioners of theirs.

I have known woman frightened to death by spiders and who would burst into tears at the sight of creepy crawlies, and women who would deliberately go out of their way to step on a snail, crush a ladybird; or break a butterfly’s wings just as easily as flattening their partners with a frying pan to the head or tossing a pan of boiling water in their face if they so much as looked at them cross-eyed! I once knew of a woman who dived into deep water and sacrificed her life to save a trapped pet from drowning, and I once knew a woman who deliberately stabbed a horse for no other reason than the horse was looking over the wall minding its own business and she was bored at the time. I also knew of another woman who died giving birth to her child after receiving the medical knowledge beforehand that her pregnancy was too dangerous to proceed with, and was she to go ahead and have her baby, either she or the life of her child could be spared, but not both!

In short, I have known all manner and types of women, yet I cannot say that I have ever known a ‘Devil Woman’. Despite the numerous types of women who I have either known or have known of, I am only too well aware that there is infinitely more about women that I do not know than I will ever know! I do not know what makes them tick, and I will never be able to delve deep enough into their minds to fathom out their female rationale and logic.

In my heart, I cannot say that I have ever known the reason which drives a woman’s mind and propels her towards completely irrational acts, and I have never been able to understand some of their feminine herd behaviour like needing to go to the loo with half a dozen friends to hold their handbags as they have a wee! What’s all that about?

And yet, I do earnestly believe that the happiest of all women are the ones who can keep the darkest of all secrets. For instance, I believe that even in 2020, we still live in a man-made world where society is predominantly shaped and functions primarily for the benefit of the male species over that of the female. Hence, if this assertion of mine is true (as I very much suspect it to be), for most married women to be happy and to remain happy in their marriages, I believe that they must engage in one of the most underhand and unequal of expectations, especially if they want to keep their man content in all ways he considers to be important to his overall state of happiness and wellbeing. I believe that for any 'clever woman' to remain happily married, she needs to keep the best secret of all. I have always believed that if a woman has a profound intellectual superiority to that of her husband, she will have a much happier marriage and relationship with her spouse if she can keep it a profound secret, and simply nod in agreement to his illogical assertions and absurd statements instead of offering her own wiser opinion to the dialogue.
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Love and peace Bill xxx
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HOSPITAL CT SCAN OF AUGUST 16TH, 2020.

16/8/2020

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​HOSPITAL CT SCAN OF AUGUST 16TH, 2020.

I attended Airedale Hospital at the crack of dawn this morning for my CT Scan. Having had many CT Scans previously, I was surprised to learn the Scanning procedure today was three times longer than usual; presumably, because it was of my full urinary tract involving kidneys, bladder, and prostate area, and the entire procedure needed to be done in three different stages with different dyes. It was not painful. The Scans will be examined by the Urologist Consultant Surgeon over the week ahead and I will be sent another hospital appointment, to have a more painful examination performed in the near future.

Back home before noon, I can now spend the rest of the day relaxing, singing, watching a bit of television, and looking forward to my bacon sandwich at lunchtime; followed later in the day by a goodly portion of our homegrown new potatoes with lots of butter, and one of Sheila's wonderfully cooked stakes for my evening meal. It is unrealistic to hope that there is not anything wrong with me, but fingers crossed over the weeks ahead that I have something wrong which is curable, operable, and can be successfully dealt with. Have a nice weekend, everyone.

Anyway, that's enough ' hospital talk', especially for a wet weekend. Let us have a bit of 'Happy Talk' for a change. Here's a little song from the 1949 Rogers and Hammerstein musical and the1958 film, 'South Pacific' to bring a bit of cheer to your Sunday.

Love and peace Bill xxx
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Song For Today: 16th August 2020

16/8/2020

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I dedicate my song today to five people; four of whom are celebrating their birthday, and one close friend who sadly is remembering the tragic death of her son in a traffic accident on August 16th, 2003.

Today’s birthday celebrants are Lorna Grady who lives in Warrington, Lancashire: Mags Margaret Mags Smith who lives in Oakworth, West Yorkshire: Jane Elizabeth Durrans who lives in Bradford, West Yorkshire: Ann Nolan who lives in County Waterford, Ireland. I hope that you enjoy your special day, ladies, and thank you for being my Facebook friend.

Lastly and by no means least, I ask that you keep Elaine Craven in your thoughts and prayers today as she remembers the tragic death of her son Robert Craven in a traffic accident on August 16th, 2003. The death of any loved one is hard to bear but none more so than the death of one’s child. Our thoughts and prayers are with you today, Elaine. Rest in peace, Robert.

My song today is ‘Ev’ry Time We Say Goodbye’. This is a popular jazz song with lyrics and music by Cole Porter. It is a part of the ‘Great American Songbook’ and was published by ‘Chappell & Company’ and introduced by Nan Wynn and Jere McMahon in 1944 in Billy Rose's musical revue ‘Seven Lively Arts’. The song has since become a jazz standard after gaining popularity in the late 1950s and early 1960s. Many artists have replaced the apostrophe in "Ev'ry" with an "e".

The lyrics celebrate how happy the singer is in the company of the beloved but suffers whenever the two separate. There have been many successful recordings of this song including The Benny Goodman Quintet and vocal by Peggy Mann (1945): Ella Fitzgerald (1956): Ray Charles and Betty Carter (1961) being among the most notable.
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I must confess that I have never found saying goodbye to loved ones and close friends easy. In fact, I would go as far as to say, this is one of these things which we all socially and personally engage in during our lives that causes loss, discomfort, and pain. Usually, I feel my loss as they leave my sight and I find a tear in my eye or a touch of sadness in my heart; even when I know that our separation is only temporary and that we shall see each other again soon. The longer the separation is likely to be, the greater the sense of loss and feeling of pain. However, when the separation is permanent, and one knows that you will never see the person alive again, the pain can feel unendurable and the loss may leave a hole in one’s heart that never heals.

Four incidents in my life illustrate the above. I have never been a person for saying ‘farewell’. Whenever I visit a friend or family member in the hospital or wave one-off at the railway station, I always have a tear in my eye and an ache in my stomach as I catch my last sight of them, even though I expect to see them again before too long.

I will never forget several years ago visiting an old school friend of mine who was an inpatient at Leeds General Hospital. He was called, David, and he had cancer. I would visit him every day as his wife had died a few years earlier with cancer, and his only son lived far away. We would have a good chat and a laugh despite the seriousness of his condition. On the fifth or sixth occasion I visited, I arrived in his ward and saw the curtains pulled around the bay of his bed that he was in. Fearing the worse, I was instantly relieved when a voice from behind the curtain said, “Is that Billy?” David sounded to be in some pain but then it emerged that he was straining himself as he attempted to evacuate his bowels as he sat on a bedpan. We spoke through the curtains for about 15 minutes before the ward nurse said, “Don’t expect him to get off that bedpan for at least another half an hour. He has been close to an hour sitting on it every day this week!” As I was in a parking zone and my ticket was running out, I said to David through the curtains, “I have to go now David or I’ll get a parking fine, but I’ll be back tomorrow at the same time.”

I came back the following day to see David, but unfortunately, another patient was occupying the bed he had been in. When I made inquiries of the Charge Nurse, I was told that he had died on his bedpan about half an hour after I had left him yesterday. I was so sad not even to have seen his face the last time we spoke. God rest his soul.

My second experience of saying ‘Goodbye’ I wish to relate was when I decided to emigrate to Canada for a couple of years one month after my 21st birthday in December 1963. A life-threatening traffic accident I had experienced at the age of 11 years, and which left me unable to walk for almost three years, resulted in me getting a sizable amount of compensation when I was 21 years of age. Once I started to walk again, I determined to realise my dream and to live in Canada a few years and travel around some of the U.S.A. and having sufficient back-up funds gave me the financial security to make my dream come true. While I had every intention of returning to England after a few years, my mother and father feared that they might never see me again the morning that I left. They, being Irish, had known of too many people who had left home to make a better life for themselves abroad, never to return.

You must remember that this was 1963 when access to Europe, let alone across the other side of the Atlantic Ocean, was something beyond the means and imagination of a working-class man and woman. There were no cheap flights in those days, and the farthest an ordinary man and woman might travel would be to the seaside. Indeed, it had been common between 1600 and 1970 for a working-class person to be born, live, and die in the same parish without ever once leaving their county!

My father was not a man for ‘goodbyes’ also, and he shook my hand and wished me luck when he went to bed the previous night. On the morning of my departure, he had already left for work down the pit. I will never forget seeing my dear mother’s tears as she pressed her face against the frosted windowpane as she waved me ‘goodbye’. I also cried as the taxi drove me to the railway station to catch my train to Liverpool, from where I would sail across the Atlantic Ocean.

My third experience of ‘Goodbye’ I want to illustrate involved saying farewell to Jenny Downton in Toronto, Canada before I returned to my parent’s house in West Yorkshire. Jenny and I met after I had been in Toronto for about one year. I was working as a desk clerk in an uptown Toronto hotel and she was still being educated in a Canadian Finishing School, preparing to go to university a year or two later. Jenny was my first real love, but we came from different sides of the tracks. Her father was the then British Trade Commissioner in Canada and the family lived a luxurious lifestyle where want was never present.

While Jenny’s parents were the kindest of people and never once seemed to resent our courtship, I eventually concluded (rightly or wrongly) that though we may have been right for each other, that though we are right, both circumstances and timing of our meeting were wrong. Jenny was younger than I, and although she seemed prepared to forgo her university degree, along with a lifestyle to which she had become accustomed, I could clearly see that such was a lifestyle that I could never afford to give her, were she to marry me. So, for the only time in my life, I gave up the woman I loved because ‘I loved her’. And, because I loved her, I chose to say ‘goodbye’ and leave her to get on with a different life than I might have given her. #

That decision led to my return to England, and within a matter of months, I had met another young woman who wanted to become an infant teacher. We started courting. Unknown to me at the time, I found myself in what is colloquially called a ’love on the rebound’ situation, which led to my first marriage.

My final illustration was the hardest of all ‘goodbyes’ I ever had to say. It began beside the hospital bed of my 64-year-old mother one Friday evening in Dewsbury during April 1986. My mother, who was not in the best of health, but had no serious illness that her family knew about, had been admitted to the hospital that week. Mum had allowed herself to get overweight during the preceding six years when she had suffered from a mental illness, and she also smoked too many cigarettes all her life. Mum was admitted into the hospital for some tests. I had been the first family member to visit her that evening and as she had seven children (of whom I was the oldest), when my other siblings arrived to see her, I kissed her ‘Goodbye’ and indicated that I’d visit again on Monday, and allow my siblings their visiting turn over the weekend. I remember that as I went through the hospital car park that was positioned directly beneath my mothers’ ward, I saw mum look out of her bedside window, smile, and wave me ‘goodbye’.

That was the last time I ever saw my dear mother alive as she suddenly died the following day! Had I known when I left her hospital ward that she would be dead the following day, I would not have said ‘Goodbye’ to mum; I would have hugged her, kissed her, and instead told her, “Thank you, Mum, for loving me and for giving me everything in my life I value and hold so dear. Thank you, Mum, for being you.” I will never forget either of my parents, but it is my mother’s smile that will never die in my memory. Coincidentally, my dear mother-in-law Elizabeth (Sheila’s mum) wore the same constant smile on her face every time I saw her also.

For Elaine and all mothers who have lost their children of whatever age, circumstance, or cause, our hearts go out to you for your loss. It matters not whether your child died in your womb before their birth, during their birth, shortly after their birth, during their childhood, in their teenage years, or even during their adulthood. Whenever and however they died, they were your child and will always remain your child. No parent ever expects a child of theirs to die before them, and for this to happen can never seem proper. It makes the loss felt by the parent all the greater, their permanent absence more inexplicable, and their bereavement more difficult to emotionally reconcile and live with. My heart goes out to all of you mothers.

Love and peace Bill xxx
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Song For Today: 15th August 2020

15/8/2020

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I dedicate my song today to Richard Jowett who lives in Bingley, West Yorkshire. Richard celebrates his birthday today. Enjoy your special day, Richard, and thank you for being my Facebook friend.

My song today is ‘Dream Baby (How Long Must I Dream’). This song was written by Cindy Walker and was first recorded and released by Roy Orbison as a non-album single in 1962. It was a big international hit for Orbison, where it reached Number 2 in both the Australian and the ‘U.K. Singles Charts’. It also reached Number 4 in the U.S. ‘Billboard Hot 100’ chart besides being a top ten hit in Canada and Norway. Five months later, ‘Dream Baby’ was included on Orbison's ‘Greatest Hits’ compilation LP.

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My mother was the best dreamer I ever knew; not because she ever realised her dreams, but because she was aware of the connection that exists between dreaming and having hope for the future; in the belief of better days to come. My mother knew that even when you do not get what you want, it nevertheless remains important to continue dreaming in the hope that one day you might!

We all have dreams. Maybe yours is to be the best at something in school or at work or to succeed at a sport or some other passion and skill you possess. Perhaps your dream is to travel somewhere in the world that you’ve been thinking about for years now or to improve your financial situation, increase your social skills, or to get your body back into great shape. It might be finding that special person who will become your better half and make your life complete or experiencing that unique pleasure of parenting your first child or stepping inside your first marital home.

If you are presently unemployed and are living on the bread line with more debts than assets, and aggravated by a sufficient absence of hope to make you feel depressed, (worse still suicidal), you will probably think that dreaming is for fools only. If you are being evicted from your home because financial circumstances prevent you paying the mortgage/rent any longer, and you and your partner and your three frustrated children are obliged to eat, sleep and live in a single hotel room that is paid for by the DHSS, it is no surprise if your mind is focussed solely on the reality of your dire situation and not on dreams.

If you are a serving soldier abroad and become an amputee after a bomb explosion and lose both legs, it will be hard for you to initially dream of ever been able to walk on false legs but will be crucially important of you to dream of doing so if you are one day to do so. If you live in a war-torn country and have no prospects of food, work, freedom or even continued life, and you outlay every penny you possess to pay illegal people smugglers to help you cross dangerous waters in unsuitable and overcrowded watercraft with your wife and children, sometimes the only thing you have to hang on to when the waves threaten to capsize your sea craft and sink you and your family beneath the waves is your dream of seeing a foreign shore. Perhaps, seeing the white cliffs of Dover is the one dream that represents peace, hope, and prosperity for you and your loved ones?

During more recent times since the pandemic virus, Covid-19 has locked down the world and restricted the freedom, harmed the health, and threatened the security of our former lives, the dreams of many have been shattered. Being furloughed for four months from a job you held for thirty years, and then finding oneself unemployed because the country’s economic downtown has forced your firm to close down or severely cut back on its workforce is devastating. There are many people like my wife (a former yoga instructor) who lost their business and prime source of income because of the lockdown, and because they are unlikely to be ever able to revive that same business which took ten years to gradually build up, their future financial security is more precarious than ever.

Such uninvited change is hard to come to terms with for anyone. Worse still have been brides and grooms unable to marry as planned during this pandemic lockdown; the fathers unable to witness the births of their offspring in maternity theatres, and family members and close friends not being allowed to hold the hand of a dying relative or loved one in their hospital bed as they lay drew their last breath; and then, even being denied attendance at their funeral service and burial! Not forgetting of course those elderly parents or lifelong spouses who live in Old Folk’s Homes who could not be visited by their family due to Lockdown, and especially those with illnesses or dementia. So many people must have felt abandoned in their hour of need!

Then, there are those people who have cancer; and even some little children with terminal illnesses who have not yet had the opportunity to step out of their nappies or set foot beyond their front doors. Imagine being the parent of a boy child who you know will never grow into their first pair of long trousers or a girl child who will never bring home their first spotty-faced boyfriend for her parents to approve of or have her father proudly walk her down the aisle on her wedding day. Imagine dreaming of one day becoming a proud mother and incurring half a dozen miscarriages or being told that you can never give birth to a child?

I recognise that sometimes, one’s hurtful and awful circumstances and daily experiences make it hard to dream, and even harder if you do dream, to keep your dream alive. I am not so unrealistic to imagine the difficulty in sometimes people being able to see any positive purpose in dreaming, but based upon mine and my mother’s experiences, I still believe in its importance in one’s overall state of happiness of ‘dreaming’.

Throughout my childhood years, whenever I walked one mile down ‘Hightown New Road’ from Windybank Estate to Cleckheaton with my mother, we would admire the lovely houses and cottages we passed along the way. ‘Hightown New Road’ was the ‘posh’ side of Hightown, and its house occupants were mostly doctors, solicitors, headmasters, and business owners. All house occupants down ‘Hightown New Road’ and their families lived luxuriously in the newest and most expensive properties for twenty miles. They wanted for nothing and their halls were larger than our house lounge.

Halfway down ‘Hightown New Road’ was a small cottage which had stood there fifty years longer than the larger and more modern houses that surrounded it. The front door to the cottage was framed in a porch of red roses (my mother’s favourite flower); not too dissimilar to that of a traditional cottage that a wealthier Irish person might have owned when my mother lived in Ireland.

Not once did mum and I ever pass this cottage without my mother saying, “One day, Billy, I’ll buy that cottage and live in it!” We both knew that unless my mum won the football pools or my father struck gold nuggets down the coal pit he worked at that, her dream home would not come true. But here is the thing! My mother lived and died with her dream, and the mere having it was as important to her ongoing happiness more than the fact than it was ever likely to be realised. Her dream was never fulfilled, but neither was it ever abandoned, and I genuinely believe that the mere holding of that dream made her life all the happier during the long days she worked throughout the week as the mother of seven children, doing whatever was required to feed, nourish and care for us.

What makes me say this is that each time we passed the house (twice or more weekly), my mum would always speak the same words to me. She would always say, “One day, Billy, I’ll buy that cottage and live in it!”; and she would smile broadly each time she told me. These words were never spoken by her in a tone of regret. No! She held on to her dream with a smile of happiness that lit up her face, even though deep down, we both knew that she would never own that cottage, except in her dreams.

As Oscar Wilde once said, (I paraphrase) “A dreamer is one who can only find their way by moonlight, and their punishment is that they can also see the dawn before the rest of the world.” When my mother went to bed at night, she would always dream about being the owner of her dream cottage, even though that she knew when the dawn came, she would still be living in our family council house on Windybank Estate.

My mother knew deep down all of her life that she would always live in a rented council-owned property. I am not the type of man to harbour regrets, but if I ever allowed myself to have one regret in my life, I have no doubt what it would be. It would be never having possessed enough money to buy my mother the cottage of her dreams. I do have a dream though that I know has already come true concerning my mother. I believe that she is presently living in the most heavenly dream cottage imaginable and looks down on all her seven children daily.
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Love and peace Bill xxx
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Song For Today: 14th August 2020

14/8/2020

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I dedicate my song today to Mark Michael Murphy who lives in the county of my birth, Waterford in Ireland. It is Mark’s birthday today. Enjoy your special day, Mark, and thank you for being my Facebook friend.

My song today is, ‘Bad to Me’. This song is credited to Lennon-McCartney. In later interviews of his life, John Lennon said that he wrote it for ‘Billy J. Kramer and the Dakotas’ while on holiday in Spain. It became one of the first occasions a Lennon–McCartney composition made the US Top 40 recorded by an artist other than the Beatles. ‘Billy J. Kramer and the Dakotas’ released their recording of the song in 1963 and it became their first Number 1 in the ‘UK Singles Chart’. The single was released in the U.S.A. the following year, and was a top-ten hit there, reaching Number 9.

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I was preparing to go and live in Canada, the year when Billy J. Kramer and the Dakotas released this song in Great Britain, and whatever happened prior to my journey abroad, I was determined that nothing would prevent me fulfilling a dream I had held since my early teenage years to live in Canada for a few years and travel around some of the American states. I needed to get all my wanderlust out of me before I was ready to settle down to married life back in England, and I knew I would fulfil this dream so long as nothing bad happened to me.

What could possibly happen to me, you might ask, that I would consider as being ‘bad to me?’ As a lifelong romantic whose greatest teenage flaw was my capacity to ‘fall in love’ with every beautiful; girl I dated, I had to make sure that I never stayed in love long enough to want to get married to anyone. Once I realised that I needed the regular experiential boost of ‘falling in love’ more than I wanted to ‘be in love’, the only way I could achieve this was to never date any girl longer than one month or to end our ongoing dating contact before I started to become emotionally attached to her (or whichever came first).

This system seemed to work for me, and it was something I could live with at the time. My ‘let out clause’ (which I rationalised at the time), was that if I told every girl on our very first date that I had no intention of getting serious with her or any young woman or getting married before I was thirty years of age, then it could not be said later that I had not been upfront with them. This would then free me to travel abroad at the age of twenty-one years after having honestly declared my clear intentions. I made it known to every young woman that any dating by me and the relationship we shared was one of being strictly regular dancing partners who were determined to have fun in the process. Anything else that occurred would be by mutual consent.

You have to remember that I was in my late teens in 1960, and this was a time when the foremost thought on the mind of almost every young woman in the land was to be married by the age of twenty to a decent and honest man of similar age and to have started their own family before they were twenty-one. When this did not happen, the parents of the young woman would fear two things. Their first fear was of their daughter being ‘left on the shelf’ and becoming an old maid who would never give them grandchildren, and their second fear was that their daughter might shame the family name and become pregnant before she got married, thereby denying herself of the pleasure of wearing a white wedding dress to signify her purity as she and the groom were marched down the aisle. Thus, much parental emphasis was placed upon waiting for one’s wedding night before indulging in full sexual intercourse.

We lived in a very sexually discriminating society in 1960; a society where women were very much regarded as being second-rate citizens to their menfolk. There was even a common phrase at the time (that was so absurd, thinking about it now), which said, ‘the girl went and got herself pregnant’ (as if she had initiated the act of sex and brought about the consequence of conception on her own!) Fathers would tell their sons in 1960, ‘There are two kinds of women, son; the kind you marry and the kind you sow your wild oats with, but don’t marry!”

Thus, the game of ‘chess courtship’ most common in 1960 involved maximising each move the couple made. A young woman dating a young man she fancied might think, “How can I get him to give me the most (i.e., marriage) while offering him the least before our wedding night? The young man might have his mind on the same thought trend while pursuing the opposite objective to the young woman. This was a dangerous game that went on between the sexes that only the destiny of the moment determined. One side of the equation involved the nature of testosterone-driven young men needing to offload while bursting to explode, and the other side would witness nubile women in the heat of their most passionate moment ensuring that their partner did not corner and capture his queen and ‘checkmate’ her. The courtship game has always been one of ‘cat and mouse’ throughout the centuries, and it was as dangerous to play in 1960 as it had ever been. But, however dangerous the courtship game proved to be, the sexual desire of the couple often placed the danger of the lover's moment as a secondary consideration. Whenever the sensual stakes were too tempting to resist, the lover's chess game would be played to the inevitable end.

At the time, the only source of birth control which a young man or woman had access to was ‘Durex’ which was commonly known as ‘a Johnnie’ or ‘a French letter’. It would be 1961 before the oral birth control pill was introduced. When the contraceptive pill was initially available on the National Health Service it was a godsend to British women who wanted no more children and who welcomed the opportunity of regaining the control of their own bodies. However, the medical establishment was not quite ready to embrace free love in 1961, and when the Pill was first introduced it could only be prescribed to married women. Also, the only place that a male could safely ask for the alternative of ‘something for the weekend’ was at his barber’s shop, and few young men of single status would have the nerve to ask, even if they ‘were on a weekend promise’. I have always wondered why males used to get their hair cut so frequently at the barbers in my youth, and now I think I know!

Also, Roman Catholics like myself usually considered ‘a French letter’ to be more unnatural and morally repugnant to use than ‘the withdrawal’ system. In truth, neither offered the couple 100% protection at the time and to the detriment of many Roman Catholics, the latter required a discipline which was frequently forgotten about in the passion of the embrace and the heat of the moment.

This period in my life is the era that today’s song reminds me of.
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Love and peace Bill xxx
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On The Move Again: 13th August 2020

13/8/2020

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ON THE MOVE AGAIN

You can say what you want about the NHS (National Health Service), but I have nothing but praise for them. I referred myself to the A&E yesterday after experiencing lots of blood from my urinary tract. I spent the day at the A&E and on the Acute Assessment Unit (AAU) being examined and having a number of exploratory tests being performed by doctors and a Urology Consultant Surgeon. I was told that a CT Scan and a bladder examination was urgently required and that I would be contacted soon. I left, expecting to be contacted between one week and two weeks hence.

This afternoon, the secretary to the Head Urology Consultant Surgeon, Mr. Nick Shaikh, phoned me at home and gave me a hospital appointment for this coming Sunday, August 16th. Now, that is what I call fast service! It is an uncanny coincidence that the consultant who will perform the Flexicystoscopy (exploratory examination via a catheter through the penis) is the consultant who attended to Sheila's late husband Anton in 1995 when he removed a tumour from his bladder and continued to monitor him until his death in 2007.

If there is to another Covid-19 postponement of all cancer operations in hospitals again during the near future, and next Sunday's scan and bladder tests show that I am in need of an urgent operation, let's hope that I can beat the deadline again, like I did the last time with my neck dissection operation and follow up sessions of radiotherapy.

For promptness and quality of service to me, I award the NHS 10/10. I never fall asleep any night without 'counting my blessings' that England has such a marvellous bunch of dedicated nurses, doctors, consultants, and surgeons looking after us.
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Love and peace Bill xxx
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Song For Today: 13th August 2020

13/8/2020

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I thank all of you who sent Sheila and me messages of support yesterday, following our visit to Airedale Hospital A&E where I spent the day having tests and examinations by the doctors and Consultative Surgeon Urologist, following seeing lots of blood in my urine tract. The consultant confirmed that I will require urgent attention and the possibility of requiring another cancer operation after a CT Scan and further tests of my bladder and urinary tract are carried out.

I want to tell you that I remain positive, and that I am not in any significant pain. I love my God, my life, my wife, my family, and my friends, as they represent everything and everyone who make each day I live more meaningful and happy for me. Sheila and I sincerely thank you for your continued prayers on our behalf. We feel blessed and wish each of you the happiness we possess.
Love and peace Bill and Sheila xxx

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My song today is dedicated to Sumitha Suseelan who celebrates her birthday today. Enjoy your special day, Sumitha, and thank you for being my Facebook friend.

My song today is ‘Dream Lover’. The song was written by Bobby Darin in March 1959. ‘Dream Lover’ reached Number 1 in the U.K. in July 1959. The song was also used in the 1973 movie, ‘That'll be The Day’.

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When this song was first released, I was 16 years of age, going on 17 years. Having been unable to walk between the ages of 11-14 years, following a serious traffic accident that left me with multiple life-threatening injuries including a damaged spine, I was both finding my feet once more and beginning to enjoy my life again. I had always loved dancing, but my accident had left one leg a few inches shorter than the other and I would never be able to glide around a ballroom floor again with the grace of movement I had possessed during earlier years when I studied old-time and ballroom dancing.

This was the era of rock and roll, and ‘bopping’ was the craze of the dance floor. ‘Bopping’ was an individualised dance that could be personalised, and it had no set moves which needed to be followed, so all dancing styles were highly individualised. I soon became as good a ‘bopper’ as there was on the floor. I was by no means the best ‘bopper’, but good enough to ensure that I always had a dancing partner, and whatever I lacked on the dance floor, my good looks and personable charms, and a lot of Irish blarney more than compensated. I always had a date, and added to my romantic inclinations of always wanting to ‘fall in love’ with a beautiful girl (something I did every month of the year), whether it was dancing, dating or dreaming, I always had a ‘Dream Lover’ by my side.

I was aware then, as I have been ever since, however, that there was and will always be, some men and women who will miss out on meeting their ‘dream lover’. Whether it involves a form of predetermined destiny, a lack of good looks, an absence of confidence, or any other ‘put off’ behaviour they may display; or even possessing the propensity of always falling for the wrong kind of person, it is an unfortunate fact that many men and women will go through their lives always being on their own. Most people believe that ‘it is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all’. However, ‘never having loved at all’ must represent the most hurtful of all of the life experiences and leave a big emotional void in a person’s heart.
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Love and peace Bill xxx
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Song For Today: 11th August 2020

11/8/2020

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I dedicate my song today to my son, William Forde, who is an Australian citizen but who is currently touring Europe, and my brother, Peter, who lives in Dewsbury, West Yorkshire with his wife, Linda Forde. It is William’s 37th birthday today and my brother Peter’s 70th birthday today. Enjoy your special day, my son, and my brother.

I also dedicate my song today to three Facebook friends who are celebrating their birthday today. Happy birthday to Susan McDonald Mendes who lives in Thunder Bay, Ontario, Canada. Happy birthday goes also to Margaret Lower who lives in Piltown, County Kilkenny, Ireland. Finally, we send birthday greetings to Jacqueline Conroy who lives in New Hyde Park, New York, U.S.A. Enjoy your special day and thank you for being my Facebook friends.

My song today is ‘Father and Son’. This a popular song that was written and performed by English singer-songwriter, Cat Stevens (now known as Yusuf/Cat Stevens) on his 1970 album ‘Tea for the Tillerman’. The song frames a heart-breaking exchange between a father not understanding a son's desire to break away and shape a new life, and the son who cannot really explain himself but knows that it is time for him to seek his own destiny. The song is designed to capture both impulses of the older and younger generation. The song is sung in a deeper register for the father's lines while using a higher one for those of the son’s words and reasons for having to go away.

Interviewed soon after the release of ‘Father and Son’, Stevens was asked if the song was autobiographical. Responding to the interviewer from ‘Disc’ he said, "I've never really understood my father, but he always let me do whatever I wanted, and he let me go. 'Father and Son' is for those people who can't break loose”. The song is not about taking one side over that of another, merely presenting both sides of father and son.

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I recall a time when I worked in a mill in Brighouse in West Yorkshire. It was a few years after I was first married. I had no children then and I was attending night school to gain university entry qualifications. This was about four years before I became a Probation Officer.

One of my workmates in the mill was called Albert. Albert was nearing his retirement. In his youth, he had been a born womaniser, a heavy drinker, and one of the best county cricketers ever to come out of Brighouse, West Yorkshire. Along the way, however, Albert fell into that most dangerous of man traps in which confirmed bachelors are prone to be ensnared by; the arms of a beautiful-looking woman who sets one’s heart on fire and stirs one’s loins to perpetual distraction.

Upon first meeting this woman, Albert told us, he wasn’t aware of the depths of deception and guile to be found in one so lovely of body and face. His woman was a strict Methodist through and through, and though she told Albert that she loved him ‘for who he was’, in her heart of hearts, she planned to change him as soon as he had placed the ring upon her finger. Within 18 months of marriage, Albert had been transformed from womaniser to Godly worshiper. He had become teetotal, he stopped smoking and swearing and had even converted to Methodism.

Each morning break at the mill, when we paused work for our tea and to eat a sandwich, Albert would always have some story to tell us that offered some worldly advice or highlighted some of life’s hidden snares waiting around the corner of our coming years to temp and endanger us. He was a wise old owl and had a knack of telling a good tale. Annoyingly though, Albert would often tell us half a tale during our ten-minute break and leave us in suspense until the day after to hear the ending. We were never quite sure if it had been insufficient time to tell which had cut his tale short before the conclusion of it or whether it was just one of the clever ploys that would provide him with enough time overnight to think up a good ending to his story for the following morning tea break at the mill.

Albert was always one to give out advice to his young workmates (whom he would affectionately refer to as being young ‘whippersnappers’). I will never forget him once telling us the advice he had to offer ‘fathers and sons’, especially when both were of strong independent mind and dad was always going to be a hard act for his son to follow. Albert’s words were, “No son will ever become the man he was meant to be until his father is dead and buried. No son will ever be able to walk in his father’s shoes while his father is still around to wear them.”

In these few sentences, Albert summed up the psychological generational gap which exists between all fathers and sons of an independent mind and strong personality. Happy birthday Will x
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Love and peace Bill xxx
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Song For Today: 10th August 2020

10/8/2020

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I have no Facebook friend’s birthdays today, so I dedicate my song today to Tony Walsh who sadly died a couple of months ago in his hometown of Carrick-on-Suir in County Tipperary, Ireland. For many years, Tony and I spent our wild teenage years together as best friends when we both lived on Windybank Estate in Liversedge, West Yorkshire. We would drink, dance, date, and fight as best mates. In later years, Tony returned to live back in Ireland and married his wife, Lily Walsh, and raised a loving family.

My song today is ‘A Mess of Blues’. This song was originally recorded by Elvis Presley for ‘RCA Records’ in 1960. It was written by Doc Pomus and Mort Shuman. Although released as the B-side to ‘It’s Now or Never’, ‘A Mess of Blues’ reached Number 32 in the U.S. and Number 2 in the UK independently.

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When this record came out, I was a 17-year-old and my best buddy was Tony Walsh. We were born in two Irish villages no more than 8 miles apart from each other. During my teens, Tony came to West Yorkshire to live with a relative on the estate where I lived, and our friendship naturally grew closer.  

Tony was a good-looking young man, but not quite as handsome as I was. Having been a good boxer earlier, his face held a rugged handsomeness whereas mine was more Adonis-like with fewer blemishes and it had never experienced so much as a scratch or broken skin. Every other bone in my body had been broken, but my face remained unscarred. Tony and I, despite being the best of mates were fiercely competitive in everything we did. We each thought ourselves to be the better looking than the other, the better dancer, the one who could drink the most, and the better fighter. I would take judo lessons twice weekly and Tony would do a bit of boxing. We also took turns teaching each other our combative specialties. We naturally, argued the merits of whether a boxer’s punch to the face or solar plexus would be more likely to floor an opponent more effectively than to throw one’s opponent over one’s shoulders during a fight (known in Judo as the ippon seoi nage).

Each week we went dancing twice. While we would always go out for a good night, more often than not, a fight would break out in the dance hall between two young men, and before anyone could sneeze twice, the whole dance hall would become a ‘free for all’ gladiatorial arena with one gang fighting another. We had a certain code of fighting behaviour at the time which deemed what was ‘acceptable’ and ‘unacceptable’. Anyone who kicked an opponent would be considered ‘a dirty fighter’ and their street reputation would be tarnished, and all use of knives and other weapons were severely a ‘no go area’ and would receive mass disapproval. Winning a fight was the objective, but winning would prove insufficient unless one ‘fought fairly’. Indeed, many a young man who lost a fight to an older and much superior and weightier opponent could emerge from their nightly contest with more respect than if he’d been the winner of a more equal bout.

And yet, there were some noticeable inconsistencies and anomalies within this moral code of combat that existed between the fighting gangs who attended the weekly dances. For instance, in a one-to-one fight, no weapon was considered socially acceptable, and to use one would invite instant mass disapproval and bring shame upon the offender of the fighting code, as would hitting a female. In mass brawls, however, while kicking opponents and using knives or knuckle dusters were considered ‘out of bounds’, it was considered okay during the course of the mass melee to crash a chair over an opponent’s head, rendering him unconscious, or to break one over his back!

The song I sing today was being played at Cleckheaton Town Hall one Saturday night when a fight broke out on the dance floor after one lad looked cross-eyed at another young man after he’d started talking to his girlfriend. Tony and I were upstairs at the time having a drink and chatting with a couple of young women. Before two or three minutes had passed between the fight starting downstairs on the dance floor, it had spread up the stairs also, and Tony and I found ourselves facing four young men from the Halifax crew on the balcony coming towards us and determined to do us some damage. Being outnumbered two to one, we sought to equal the score by hitting the two closest to us before they had the chance to hit either of us. For once, Tony took my advice. He forgot his boxing ability for a moment, and after picking up a nearby chair, he crashed it down on one of the other crew, while I was in a tussle with another Halifax chappie. 

Seconds later, I and the Halifax chap went over the balcony and we fell the 15 feet distance towards the dance floor. I don’t know if we landed on anyone else, but my fall was cushioned when I landed on my opponent. I quickly got to my feet, ignoring the young Halifax man who I had fallen over the balcony with and ran back upstairs to check on Tony. Although nursing a bruised face, Tony had successfully dealt with his second opponent who was now laid out on the floor.

The irony of this Saturday night dance hall brawl was that the girl who the initial fight had broken out over was not the steady girlfriend of either of the initial two combatants. She was merely a pawn in the traditional Saturday night sport of “Don’t you dare look at one of the girls from our patch, or else!” 

This is what I remember vividly about this particular Saturday night at Cleckheaton Town Hall Dance which Tony Walsh and I attended sixty years ago; plus the song of Elvis’ that was being danced to at the time, ‘A Mess of Blues’. We joked afterward that while ‘A Mess of Blues’ was being played downstairs, Tony and I were creating our own mess fighting upstairs on the balcony!

God bless you, Tony, mate. They do say there is lots of music and dancing but no fighting up in heaven, so hopefully, you are not too bored up there Tony?

Love and peace Bill xxx
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Song For Today: 9th August 2020

9/8/2020

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My song is dedicated today to my great-nephew, Owen Morris who lives in Cleckheaton, West Yorkshire with his parents, Carol Morris and Dougie Morris, and Assumpta Phelan who lives in Portlaw, County Waterford (the village of my birth). Both Owen and Assumpta celebrate their birthday today. Enjoy your special day.

My song today is ‘Footloose’. This song was co-written and recorded by American singer-songwriter Kenny Loggins. It was released in January 1984 as the first of two singles by Loggins from the 1984 film of the same name (the other one being ‘I’m Free (Heaven Helps the Man)’. The song spent three weeks at Number 1 between March 31—April 14, 1984, on the US ‘Billboard Hot 100’ chart and was the first of two Number-1 hits from the film. Billboard ranked it as the Number 4 song for 1984.

The song was very well received and is one of the most recognizable songs recorded by Loggins. When the ‘American Film Institute’ released its ‘AFI’S 100 Years Best 100 Songs’, ‘Footloose’ reached the 96th position. The song was covered by country music artist, Blake Shelton for the 2011 remake of the 1984 film. It was nominated for an ’Academy Award for Best Original Song’ at the 1985 ceremony, losing to Stevie Wonder’s ‘I Just Called to Say I Love You’ from ‘The Woman in Red’. In 2018, it was selected for preservation in the ‘National Recording Registry’ by the ‘Library of Congress’ as being "culturally, historically, or artistically significant."

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My research into the origin of the saying, ‘Footloose’ mentions a citation for it in the Oxford Dictionary in 1873, meaning ‘Free to act as one pleases; not hampered by any ties.’ It later got associated with the term ‘Footloose and fancy-free’. In nautical terminology, ‘being footloose’ was likened to the animations of a sail. In most sailing vessels, the lower edge of the mainsail (known as the foot), was lashed to the boom to keep it stretched and properly shaped. However, there were some exceptions, notably the London river barges. These vessels did not have a boom, and the sail hung loose along the foot. Loose-footed sails, as they came to be called, had a mind of their own and were more difficult to control. It is from this that the meaning ‘footloose and fancy-free’ is believed to have come from.

As for having a mind of my own, I am afraid that I was always guilty of this characteristic. Not only did it mark out my independence of thought (a personal attribute not usually considered to be present in anyone brought up in a strict Roman Catholic household), but being ‘footloose and fancy-free’ enabled me to remain unmarried until my 26th year of life. This was a remarkable achievement for any young romantic like myself who lived in an age (born in 1942) when most young men and women were married by the time they were 21 years old and were often the proud or sorry parents of two or more children before their 26th birthday!

Once one is married, being ‘footloose and fancy-free’ is wholly non-applicable to any new experience; that is unless you are doomed to a failed marital relationship.

I will never forget meeting a woman in the mid-1980s when I served as a Probation Officer in Huddersfield. She was in her forties and had been married and divorced four times! This veritable Zsa Zsa Gabor was already well on her way to equalling the Hollywood film star’s record of nine failed marriages and divorces.

It turned out that the woman’s four marriages and divorces (during years when getting divorced was still a rare occurrence and was still socially frowned upon) had less to do with her unfaithful tendencies with other men while still married to her current husband, and was due more to her fascination with wearing a bridal gown and being ‘the most important person’ on the day of her wedding!

The woman had lived a life throughout her childhood and young woman years as being marked down as an individual of insignificant worth by both her teachers, her siblings and her mother (her father had died when she was four or five years old). She was very attractive and had no difficulty in attracting the attention of men, despite having gone past her younger years. She was first married at the age of 18 years; a marriage that lasted a mere two years before she had started another relationship while awaiting her husband’s decision to divorce her because of her infidelity. She never gave birth to children, presumably having some medical condition which prevented her from becoming a mother.

Before her thirtieth birthday, she had started stealing from stores in town, and after three offences of theft, she was made the subject of a Probation Order. Her pattern of thefts was the most intriguing feature of her offences, as every item, she ever stole related to ‘weddings’ such as confetti or wedding cards, or wedding shoes etc. On one occasion she was prosecuted for theft and deception when, posing as a bride-to-be, she got measured for a wedding dress to be made up by a marriage shop in Huddersfield. She had gone into town on three occasions for a fitting before it became clear that she was already married and had not the financial means or motive to pay for a new wedding dress.

The bottom line was that she loved getting married, along with all the pomp and ceremony attached to weddings, including the wedding reception afterwards, and the receipt of all her wedding presents! After about five years, and three supervising Probation Officers later (not an unusual length of time to be under a Probation Officer in the 1980s), her most significant progress could be seen in her absence of the theft of wedding items.

As a behaviourist, I recall telling her and her most recent partner that she did not have physically get married every time she wanted to wear a wedding dress and that there was no law on earth preventing her wearing a wedding dress in her home any day or night. She was told that she could wear a bridal veil to bed or a blue garter around her thigh if that worked better for her and her husband. I know that she even tried out this suggestion of mine, and although it did provide some temporary benefit, it was no solution, and was insufficient to change her overall problem behaviour that had been deeply entrenched over two decades or more.

Some few months later, she moved areas and our contact ended. While her criminal behaviour was somewhat unusual, given her predisposition towards always wanting to get married, it could have been much worse I suppose, as she had all the hallmarks of becoming a bigamist!
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Love and peace Bill xxx

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Song For Today: 8th August 2020

8/8/2020

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I dedicate my song today to Ambrose Walsh who lives in County Tipperary, Ireland, and Julie Poole who lives in Western Australia. Both Ambrose and Julie celebrate their birthday today. Enjoy your special day.

32 years ago, today, on 08/08/88, my wife Sheila and her first husband, Anton Murray, married. Anton sadly died in 2007, and when I first met Sheila, she had been widowed for three years. We married on my 70th birthday of 10/11/2012. Is it a matter of coincidence that both Sheila and I place prominence on numbers and dates for their symbolism, or is it one of fate? My dedication today, also goes to my wife and Anton’s wedding anniversary when Sheila was ‘Anton's gal’ before Sheila Forde became mine.

My song today is, ‘For Me and My Gal’. This song is over 100 years old and was first recorded in 1917 by Van and Schenck; the Prince’s Orchestra, Henry Burr, Albert Campbell, and Billy Murry, among others. This standard song was by George W. Meyer with lyrics by Edgar Leslie and E. Ray Goetz.

This song was used in the 1942 film of the same name, where it is the first song that Jo Hayden (Judy Garland) and Harry Palmer (Gene Kelly) perform together. The Decca single release of the Garland/Kelly version was a major hit in 1942.

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The film of this song’s name was released during the year of my birth, and it holds an additional significance for me. I was taken to see the film by my mother who would take me, and sometimes our Mary and Eileen, to the Picture House (cinema) in Cleckheaton every week. As the firstborn of seven children, I was always be taken on my own initially around the age of 7 and 8 years, while my next two siblings in line had to wait a few years longer than me before they were permitted to accompany us.

My mother was born an Irish romantic and she died one. Mum loved all kinds of singing films that had a romantic love storyline to them, while dad only liked the religious films and the westerns. I think that the only film which all the Forde family jointly liked was the film with Maureen O’Hara and John Wayne called ‘The Quiet Man’ which was set in Ireland.

Being brought up with a weekly film attendance of every musical film ever produced, I was in my element and it was no great surprise that I would naturally develop into the singing of love ballads from childhood into my adult years. I still love seeing a good romantic film today, and I often get a speck of dust in my eye (which I have to remove with my handkerchief) when I am viewing sad romantic scenes.
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Love and peace Bill xxx
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Song For Today: 7th August 2020

7/8/2020

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I dedicate my song today to Patricia Rogers who lives in Filey, North Yorkshire, England, and Rita Heston who lives in Haworth, West Yorkshire. Both Patricia and Rita celebrate their birthday today. I hope that you enjoy your special day, ladies.

My song today is, ‘Forever in Blue Jeans’. This song by Neil Diamond was co-written with his guitarist, Richard Bennett. This up-tempo track, released as a single by Columbia in February 1979, was taken from the previous year's Neil Diamond album ‘You Don’t Bring Me, Flowers’. Neil Diamond said about the song: "The simple things are really the important things”.

The song officially peaked at Number 20 on the ‘Billboard Hot 100’ chart and Number 2 on the ‘Easy Listening’ chart in March, 1979.

According to ‘Cotton Incorporated’, "Neil Diamond might have been right when he named his 1979 Number 1 hit ‘Forever in Blue Jeans’ as 81% of women are planning their next jeans purchase to be some shade of blue." The song has been used to promote the sale of blue jeans, most notably Will Ferrell, impersonating Neil Diamond singing, for ‘The Gap’. Coincidentally, Diamond himself did radio adverts for H.I.S. brand jeans in the 1960s, more than a decade before he sang this song.

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Despite having lived and worked in Canada during the early 1960s, as well as travelling around parts of the USA and being a great fan of Country & Western music, I cannot recall wearing a pair of Jeans until I was in my late 30s. While cowboys and Americans started wearing them during the last century, I was approaching 40 years old before I donned my first pair of denim.

Jeans are pants made from denim or dungaree cloth. They were invented by Jacob Davis and Levi Strauss in 1873 and are worn still today as both work and fashionable clothing items. The name ‘Jeans’ originates from the city of Genoa in Italy, a place where cotton corduroy, called either ‘jean’ or jeane’ was manufactured.

I can still recall the American President, Jimmy Carter, being publicly seen wearing jeans as he performed some presidential duty on the television in 1977, and also President Ronald Reagan and President George Bush Snr. As for me, I was brought up in the era of wearing suits and I kept this tradition when I became a Probation Officer in 1971. No Probation Officer would have been allowed entrance to either work or inside a court building in 1971 without a suit or wearing black or brown leather shoes of a sober design. Similarly, while female Probation Officers could wear more colourful clothes, all trouser wear was strictly deemed inappropriate and banned. In fact, female Probation Officers never wore trousers when performing duties at work or in court, and rarely in the home (with the exception of a few young women officers who wore the pants in their marriage).
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Love and peace Bill xxx
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