My visit to see the skin consultant this afternoon resulted in my receiving the worst result possible from the two biopsies taken from each side of my forehead seven weeks ago after a one and a half hour operation on the right hand-side of my forehead to excavate the cancer that was there. Each biopsy showed that I have malignant and invasive skin cancer and that the consultant's attempt to cut it all out of one side seven weeks ago was unsuccessful. The course of action proposed is as follows:
- To place me on the emergency list for another operation and to try to cut out all the cancer from both sides of my forehead if possible. This will leave a hole in my head and will require a skin graft to tidy it up
- To also discuss my case with a large assembly of consultants this Friday, to get second, third, fourth, fifth, 'second opinion'.
The overall situation is therefore extremely serious, though not wholly unexpected, given the nature of my terminal blood cancer and its consequential effects. I have to hope that like my blood that is currently in a temporary state of remission, the skin cancer invasion can be slowed down and grant me as long a rest from its inevitable spread as much as possible.
Please believe me that while I naturally feel sad about the overall situation that Sheila and I face, I am not afraid of the future; how can one when every new morning is truly welcomed by me as a bonus. I have far many more good daily experiences in my life and fewer bad ones than most people, and everything I know and believe reminds me that I have much to be grateful for.
On a more positive note, over the past few years and particularly since my lovely lady and wife, Sheila entered my life, I have never been as much loved as I now am. Indeed, I can honestly say that my wife, family, neighbours, friends and God have made me feel as loved and favourably thought of as any man deserves to feel. Thank you all for your continued kind thoughts and prayers. If you keep them coming, I'll sing you a song as to how I presently feel.
Love and peace Bill. XXX.