"We all come to new relationships with a history and a certain degree of emotional baggage that we haven't yet unpacked. Therefore, tread carefully lest you trample my feelings underfoot as you walk through the fragile moments of my former life. When you come into my world and stand alongside me, be mindful that we have different pasts and not necessarily the same expectations for the future. Do not try to walk in my footprints that lay buried in my past, lest you disturb the dust too much and cloud our future by the accidental opening of old burial grounds of pain and suffering I have not yet fully dealt with. Instead, tiptoe gently through my gradual disclosures and think upon them hard before arriving at any conclusion or the issuing of any unjust reprimand. Remember that all adults do not recall their childhood and upbringing with fond memory; be mindful that all parents are not kind to their children, neither are all adults and neighbours sympathetic when they hear allegations of neglect, bullying and abuse come from a child's mouth.
Just because I now smile frequently and treasure active involvement with the lighter side of life doesn't mean that it was always so. It doesn't imply that I wasn't frequently overshadowed with the dark clouds of depression. Just because I am 40 years of age and remain motherless doesn't render me sterile; just because I choose not to have children doesn't make me a bad person. I may be childless now, but suffered the agony of many stillbirths as a young woman. I may treasure all form of life today, despite being forced by my parents to have an abortion during my teens. I may even have had three marriages and three divorces, yet have always remained faithful to my sacred wedding vows and spouse.
Oh, new love of my life, in you my expectations are of the highest. Treat me with honesty, gentleness, kindness and oodles of love. Listen with open heart and understanding when I unfold to you moments of my past. Forgive me my weaknesses when you discover my faults and be always ready to hold my hand, dry my tears and give me that loving kiss that tells me you understand.
So tread gently, for in thee I have found true love anew and the promise of eternal healing and better days to come." William Forde : October 8th, 2017.